Anonymous
Beloved of All
Heavenly Father,
I stand before you today with a very very confused heart. I am praying that you help me discern what is for me and not for me.
Karl just called me after a week of no contact. Up to now, I am still in the state of shock. I can’t believe he was the first one to break no contact with me.
I honestly do not want to expect anything from our conversation. Perhaps it is just his way of checking up on me. However, Lord God, I am still so confused. As much as I want to think that he called me up because he wants to come back into my life, its still not enough because he might just be really checking up on me or something.
Lord, I am really tired of the games. I don’t wanna play anymore mind games with Karl. I want to know soon if he really is who I prayed for. I put all my trust in you, Jesus. I surrender Karl to you, O Lord. I lift him up to you. If he is really going to be my future husband, I pray that you give me a sign.
Lord, I want to experience love again. I want to be with a man who is ready for a future with me. A man who wants a relationship. Not someone who just wants to play mind games with me. I am tired of getting hurt, Lord. I always give myself away too much. I am longing to be loved and feel loved by someone.
Lord, I really want to have my own family already. I am at a point where I have so much love to give to someone. And Lord, I really pray that this future husband of mine would love me more than I love him. I pray that he will accept Matteo as his own son.
Jesus, I am sorry for asking too much. I am just so afraid to get my hopes up on something that won’t happen. If Karl is really going to be my husband, please show him the way. Please cure him from all his attachment style issues. Please show him that love takes time and that I am not someone who will cheat or leave him for someone else. I pray that you show him that I can be trusted and that I am someone who really cares about him. I pray too that he will be faithful and understanding of me.
I pray that if he decides to want a relationship with me, that he will also be free from temptation. I pray that he will stay true to his words and that he can actually walk his talk. As much as I like or maybe love him already, I also do not trust him. I just really do not want to wake up and regret all of this the same way that I experienced this with Amiel.
Please Lord. I can’t sleep. I am so anxious and scared. I really really want to be with Karl but I don’t know if this is even right for me. I want to see him again, Lord. I want to know him more and start a future together and have kids. All of those things, Jesus.
Lord, if he is not for me then please close the door between us already. I do not wanna get hurt anymore. I am really tired and frustrated. I am always at the receiving end waiting for someone and something to happen. I am also waiting if Vince wants to come back. I honestly do not know anymore. I am so overwhelmed by everything.
Jesus, please I firmly believe that I have already met my future husband. All I am just asking for now is a sign to know if Karl will really come back into my life for good. I pray that you show me Lord if he is really now ready to commit and start a relationship with me. I have fallen in love with this guy and I am afraid of what the future holds.
I lift all of my problems and burdens up to you, Jesus. Please take care of everything. Please please give me a sign. I really want to settle down already.. Please hear my prayer, Lord. I am begging you.
Amen.
I stand before you today with a very very confused heart. I am praying that you help me discern what is for me and not for me.
Karl just called me after a week of no contact. Up to now, I am still in the state of shock. I can’t believe he was the first one to break no contact with me.
I honestly do not want to expect anything from our conversation. Perhaps it is just his way of checking up on me. However, Lord God, I am still so confused. As much as I want to think that he called me up because he wants to come back into my life, its still not enough because he might just be really checking up on me or something.
Lord, I am really tired of the games. I don’t wanna play anymore mind games with Karl. I want to know soon if he really is who I prayed for. I put all my trust in you, Jesus. I surrender Karl to you, O Lord. I lift him up to you. If he is really going to be my future husband, I pray that you give me a sign.
Lord, I want to experience love again. I want to be with a man who is ready for a future with me. A man who wants a relationship. Not someone who just wants to play mind games with me. I am tired of getting hurt, Lord. I always give myself away too much. I am longing to be loved and feel loved by someone.
Lord, I really want to have my own family already. I am at a point where I have so much love to give to someone. And Lord, I really pray that this future husband of mine would love me more than I love him. I pray that he will accept Matteo as his own son.
Jesus, I am sorry for asking too much. I am just so afraid to get my hopes up on something that won’t happen. If Karl is really going to be my husband, please show him the way. Please cure him from all his attachment style issues. Please show him that love takes time and that I am not someone who will cheat or leave him for someone else. I pray that you show him that I can be trusted and that I am someone who really cares about him. I pray too that he will be faithful and understanding of me.
I pray that if he decides to want a relationship with me, that he will also be free from temptation. I pray that he will stay true to his words and that he can actually walk his talk. As much as I like or maybe love him already, I also do not trust him. I just really do not want to wake up and regret all of this the same way that I experienced this with Amiel.
Please Lord. I can’t sleep. I am so anxious and scared. I really really want to be with Karl but I don’t know if this is even right for me. I want to see him again, Lord. I want to know him more and start a future together and have kids. All of those things, Jesus.
Lord, if he is not for me then please close the door between us already. I do not wanna get hurt anymore. I am really tired and frustrated. I am always at the receiving end waiting for someone and something to happen. I am also waiting if Vince wants to come back. I honestly do not know anymore. I am so overwhelmed by everything.
Jesus, please I firmly believe that I have already met my future husband. All I am just asking for now is a sign to know if Karl will really come back into my life for good. I pray that you show me Lord if he is really now ready to commit and start a relationship with me. I have fallen in love with this guy and I am afraid of what the future holds.
I lift all of my problems and burdens up to you, Jesus. Please take care of everything. Please please give me a sign. I really want to settle down already.. Please hear my prayer, Lord. I am begging you.
Amen.