Tyrone31
Disciple of Prayer
My ex left me in July, we were best friends before we dated close to a year and a half. We dated for 3 years. When we first met at work it was an instant connection; it was like we already knew each other. Not a day has gone by where she was not on my mind, even in our friendship stage. For some reason, I knew one day we would be together, so I didn’t want to rush into things and just create a loving friendship first. And we became inseparable at work, and I always loved when she was next to me. We both ended up getting into other relationships, but it didn’t bother me because I knew we weren’t ready for each other. But the man she was with wasn’t a good man and betrayed her. I never fell in love with the woman I was with because I was in love with my best friend, so I let my heart relationship end. Now that we were both single, we became a couple. It was great at the beginning, but the devil entered our relationship and created issues through work injuries, creating a depression in me, jealousy through friends giving her bad advice on our disagreements, especially coming from a friend who asked my ex to set us up together. I wasn’t perfect and I found out I needed my own self-healing to work on to be a better man for her and my 2 kids. She doesn’t have children, but I so badly want to be her husband and raise a child with her. Our relationship was very loving and special; her leaving me came out of nowhere. She’s been done wrong by every man she’s been in relationships with, and it’s like she doesn’t know what to do next but run. I feel like she is scared if we do take the next step and I hurt her. But I know this woman is my best friend and I love her true being. I don’t see her shell; I see her spirit. I could take forever about her. But since our July split in November, she thought I had a girlfriend and texted, hurting, asking me how can I move on so quickly. But she got false information from someone. Then two weeks later on Thanksgiving, she came to see me, went on a date two days later. Then she disappeared again, then slowly starts reaching out again and then retreats. I last saw her March 9th, and she seems so lost, and I pray for her every night. She said she has things going on inside her head and maybe she will tell me one day what that is. I don’t believe she is following her heart. I believe she is trying to make everyone else happy with what her decision is and not herself. She still has one of her friends check my social media posts, so mostly everything I post is a message to her in some kind of form of a song or prayer. She’s my best friend, and our relationship was not bad at all and full of love. She says she still loves me, but I don’t know what is keeping us apart. I know she still loves me, and I very much am still in love with her. Not a day goes by where she is not on my mind since the moment we met.
