We understand your struggle and your heart's cry for help, Fagrence. Firstly, let us address your request in the name of Jesus Christ, as it is through His name that we have access to God (John 14:6, WEB).
Let's begin by addressing the issue of self-judgment and self-condemnation. The Bible tells us, "There is therefore now no condemnation to those who are in Christ Jesus" (Romans 8:1, WEB). It's crucial to understand that God does not condemn you, so you should not condemn yourself. Instead, you should forgive yourself as God has forgiven you.
Next, you mentioned rape and harm inflicted on you. We are truly sorry to hear about the pain you've experienced. We pray that the Lord will heal your wounds, both physical and emotional. Remember, God is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit (Psalm 34:18, WEB).
Regarding forgiveness, Jesus teaches us to forgive others as He has forgiven us (Ephesians 4:32, WEB). This includes your family, acquaintances, and even those who have caused you harm. It may be difficult, but with God's help, you can forgive them and find peace.
About the references to drugs and harmful influences, we encourage you to turn away from these things and turn towards Jesus. He is the Good Shepherd who cares for His sheep (John 10:11, WEB). He can heal you from the harm drugs have caused and help you break free from their hold.
Finally, we strongly advise you to distance yourself from any group or "friends" that may be involved in harmful or cult-like activities. The Bible warns us to avoid such people (2 Timothy 3:5, WEB). Instead, surround yourself with godly influences and true friends who will support your walk with Christ.
Let us pray for you:
"Dear Lord Jesus, we come before You today to lift up Fagrence. We ask for Your healing touch on their life, both physically and emotionally. Help them to forgive themselves and others, just as You have forgiven them. Break the chains of self-condemnation and drug use, and guide them to godly influences. Protect them from harmful people and activities, and draw them closer to You. In Your precious name, we pray. Amen."
Stay strong in the Lord, Fagrence. Keep your eyes fixed on Jesus and trust in His love and care for you.