Skewsander
Disciple of Prayer
bare with me as i grew up religious but have strayed away from it as i grew up.. but my ex really needs prayer and i know that strength is better in numbers so please help me pray for him. he has been drinking and smoking every day to my knowledge since he turned 21 (which was at the end of february) and it worries me. i know that he has troubles in life with his dad and with his growing up life. i as well have troubles in my growing up life and in my current life. i need help. we need help. i treated him awfully when we were together. i think i have a personality disorder and it’s been ruining my life for my entire life. i want my partner back and i want us to be able to live a beautiful life. i want him to be able to grow and mature and come back when the time is right. i also want to grow and mature during that time. i would really be grateful if he had some realizations about life and our relationship and if he would give me another chance. i don’t want to spend my birthday (in october) or christmas with him. he moved out of his parents house a couple days ago and we’re all very worried for him. i love him and i so badly want to heal from all of my issues and be a whole person who can love him fully. he knew me better than anyone. i love him very much but i was terrible at showing it and we had a lot of troubles when we were together. we had good times together as well but they were getting more few and far apart as time went on. we were together for over 2 years but when he got into a car accident, it changed both of us. we were angrier and we were more upset. when we broke up, we continued to hangout for about a another month and we were able to have fun that we hadn’t had in a while. we broke up in the beginning of march. he picked new someone over me in the beginning of april. it gutted me, of course. i just so badly want us to be able to mature and grow and be able to be back together. i don’t want to live my life without him. i’ve really struggled with suicidal thoughts and gestures in my life for years. i’ve attempted suicide before, three years ago. i’m worried that i won’t make it without him in life and i know that i don’t want to live a life that he isn’t in. please pray for us both. i’ve been trying to pray recently, it’s just a bit hard for me because i’ve felt alone a lot of my life and have felt unheard by god. thank you <3
edit: our names are j (me) and caleb (ex) the new girls name is andria and i really do not like her. she is one of those who thinks she’s better than everyone else and told me she is better than me. i know that i would feel fully betrayed by god if he let my ex and this new girl work out.
edit: our names are j (me) and caleb (ex) the new girls name is andria and i really do not like her. she is one of those who thinks she’s better than everyone else and told me she is better than me. i know that i would feel fully betrayed by god if he let my ex and this new girl work out.
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