Urwenn
Disciple of Prayer
I'm writing to you today with a heavy heart, seeking your urgent prayers and support. I'm currently living in the UK. I'm facing a multitude of challenges that have left me feeling overwhelmed, lost, and struggling with my mental health. I've always been driven by a desire for knowledge and achievement, graduating with excellent marks and pursuing further education. However, since graduating six months ago, I've been unable to find stable employment. Despite countless applications, I've faced constant rejection, and even in the few interviews I've secured, I've struggled to articulate myself due to severe anxiety. This has been a devastating blow to my self-esteem and has left me feeling like a failure. Beyond the job search, I'm battling several other issues:
- **Loss of Direction:** I feel lost and unsure of my purpose. I've gained a lot of knowledge but struggle to apply it meaningfully in my life.
- **Mood Struggles:** I experience significant mood swings and struggle with my emotional well-being. I sometimes have thoughts of self-harm.
- **Relationship Concerns:** I deeply love my girlfriend, who lives in ### (I am from ###), but I often feel unworthy of her and worry about the impact of my struggles on our long-distance relationship.
- **Spiritual Disconnect:** I was raised in the Christian faith but have drifted away over the years, which has contributed to my sense of disorientation.
- **Addiction:** I'm struggling with a pornography addiction, which further exacerbates my depression and self-loathing.
I recognize that I've had a journey of pride, and I'm learning the importance of humility. I understand that I need to change, and I'm willing to seek help. I know I need professional help for my mental health, and I am looking into accessing those services. Recently, I've found some comfort in watching Paul Dhinakaran's sermons, which have soothed my spirit and lifted me up. However, I know that ultimately, I need to cultivate my own personal relationship with God through prayer. I struggle to pray for myself right now. It feels difficult to connect and express my needs directly. I know putting all my faith in someone else is not right, and I understand the importance of personal prayer, but at this moment, I find it incredibly challenging. This is another area where I desperately need your prayers.
I'm reaching out to this prayer group because I desperately need spiritual support. I feel lost and alone, and I know that the power of prayer can bring healing, guidance, and strength. Please pray for:
- **Guidance and direction:** That I may find clarity about my purpose and find suitable employment.
- **Healing and mental well-being:** That I find healing from anxiety, low mood, and the addiction I struggle with.
- **Strength and resilience:** To overcome these challenges and find hope for the future.
- **My relationship:** That my relationship with my girlfriend remains strong and that I can be a supportive partner to her.
- **Spiritual reconnection:** That I may find my way back to faith and find peace and comfort in God's love.
- **The ability to pray:** That I can find the strength and connection to pray for myself and develop a deeper personal relationship with God.
I understand that God works through many avenues, including professional help, and I am pursuing that as well. However, I believe in the power of prayer and ask for your collective prayers during this difficult time. Thank you for your compassion and support.
- **Loss of Direction:** I feel lost and unsure of my purpose. I've gained a lot of knowledge but struggle to apply it meaningfully in my life.
- **Mood Struggles:** I experience significant mood swings and struggle with my emotional well-being. I sometimes have thoughts of self-harm.
- **Relationship Concerns:** I deeply love my girlfriend, who lives in ### (I am from ###), but I often feel unworthy of her and worry about the impact of my struggles on our long-distance relationship.
- **Spiritual Disconnect:** I was raised in the Christian faith but have drifted away over the years, which has contributed to my sense of disorientation.
- **Addiction:** I'm struggling with a pornography addiction, which further exacerbates my depression and self-loathing.
I recognize that I've had a journey of pride, and I'm learning the importance of humility. I understand that I need to change, and I'm willing to seek help. I know I need professional help for my mental health, and I am looking into accessing those services. Recently, I've found some comfort in watching Paul Dhinakaran's sermons, which have soothed my spirit and lifted me up. However, I know that ultimately, I need to cultivate my own personal relationship with God through prayer. I struggle to pray for myself right now. It feels difficult to connect and express my needs directly. I know putting all my faith in someone else is not right, and I understand the importance of personal prayer, but at this moment, I find it incredibly challenging. This is another area where I desperately need your prayers.
I'm reaching out to this prayer group because I desperately need spiritual support. I feel lost and alone, and I know that the power of prayer can bring healing, guidance, and strength. Please pray for:
- **Guidance and direction:** That I may find clarity about my purpose and find suitable employment.
- **Healing and mental well-being:** That I find healing from anxiety, low mood, and the addiction I struggle with.
- **Strength and resilience:** To overcome these challenges and find hope for the future.
- **My relationship:** That my relationship with my girlfriend remains strong and that I can be a supportive partner to her.
- **Spiritual reconnection:** That I may find my way back to faith and find peace and comfort in God's love.
- **The ability to pray:** That I can find the strength and connection to pray for myself and develop a deeper personal relationship with God.
I understand that God works through many avenues, including professional help, and I am pursuing that as well. However, I believe in the power of prayer and ask for your collective prayers during this difficult time. Thank you for your compassion and support.