Brennwen
Disciple of Prayer
I ask for the prayer because all my life till this day at 29 years old I had to be raised by my controlling Narcissistic negligent rejectful single mother. Till this day I’m experiencing the negative effects in my social life of her failure as single mother in my upbringing. She always has to interrupt me when I’m speaking and is very rude and disrespectful. She thinks it’s everyone’s burden and job to pick up her weight and she always wants to project her defects on me. She is 60 years old, doesn’t have any friends and is from Mexico and has really bad attitude and manners. She has not been able to meet her expectations as a mother and I have already forgiven her. Most of the time she just wants me to shut up and not speak up or have any communication. I feel she is not all the way there, doesn’t want me to have a life and I have had to deal with her and a lot of her failure she has contributed to me in my upbringing. I have put it all in Gods hands and ask for the prayer for God to direct my steps, help me find a home church, help find a supportive group of friends because she has always wanted all the attention in my life and has hindered me from having any friends. She is very controlling. I pray to be able to find a job where I am respected and can be independent and not have to ask her for any help because each time I do so she gets bothered. Yesterday we talked to some pastors, she would not stop interrupting, and we prayed and today she doesn’t want to speak to me and is shutting down. Satan is using her to attack me, push my buttons and provoke arguments and a negative atmosphere without a doubt. She was raped by her three brothers in Mexico at the age of 5 years old, was in a child abusive home, had six children, left 5 at an orphanage in Mexico, had me at 30 as a single mother and is deeply traumatized and she has always transferred her negativity to me. She was rejected by her family all her life and her family never supported her or helped her. She tends to over exaggerate everything. For this reason she has exposed me to evil people and evil people have always wanted to destroy my whole world. Please pray for me to be strengthened by God and Jesus Christ so that I can find Godly supportive friends and be independent without her negativity.