Shreomor
Disciple of Prayer
Dear Pastor, I am a pastor but I'm deeply ashamed and I don't have the courage to tell you what sin I have committed. I am very ashamed that I hugged my brother's wife. I am so ashamed of what I have done that I don't have courage to look anyone in the eye, especially this daughter. As a pastor, I'm expected to pray for the church, people are coming to pray and also inviting me to their houses. I'm going but with a broken heart. I have lost the joy and confidence of my salvation. Now I don't even have the courage to stand on the pulpit and serve the word. It's become a challenging task for me. I've confessed my sin to God with a sincere heart, asked Him for forgiveness. I also reached out to that daughter, seeking her forgiveness and assuring her that I'll maintain a safe distance from her in the future. I have tried my best to explain to her in every way with the truth of my heart that I will never go near her rest of my life. Just give me a chance but she is not ready to forgive me at any cost. She is talking to me because I repeatedly asking her but she has told me this many times and she does not even want to talk to me. I know and understand fully that I hurted her. Her refusal has taken a toll on my mental health a lot, and I'm haunted by the thought that if she doesn't forgive me, my life and ministry will be over. I fear that the church will be scattered and will suffer, and I'll be held accountable. I don't want to die without Christ. I'm willing to do whatever it takes to make things right, If you or that daughter will say to me, even if it means confessing my sin publicly without revealing the daughter name. I'll confess. I humbly request that you pray for my restoration and that daughter also forgive me. With heartfelt apologies! Shahid Arif