Prayer Request: I don’t want be the person that I am

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Prayer Request: I don’t want be the person that I am and I don’t want to lose people. Sorry its too long..

I apologize to everyone that I push away. In life you allow things to happen that you can control. You allow people to make you feel a certain way. You allow situations and people to affect your mood and stress. You allow negative things affect your life. You allow so much that you lose yourself. Maybe I am talking from experience. I’ve allow so many situations and person affect me. Since I allow so much and took in so much, I am a person that I don’t like. I allow so much that I could of prevented and it seems second nature to me. I make excuse for no reason. I allow so much negativity that comes within that I don’t blame anyone to be around me. I can’t continue to allow this to happen to me. I've been some negative thinking in my life and it seems like I keep on doing the same thing over and over. I've been trying to stop doing the negative things but I've been changing little by little but not completely yet. The most negative people in my life are my family. I push people away and they are the ones who are the most positive for me. I am determined to change my life and change my way of thinking. I know it will be a long journey but it has to be done. Also I need to comfort the main source of my issues and I know when I will do it. I was going to comfort it last Saturday going to lunch but soon I cancel it because I wanted to go somewhere else and put it off. I need to live my life and people are right I was a people pleaser so I can avoid conflict. Honestly I need to get me together. I know the biggest influence in my life and the ones who affect me the most. The thing is I can’t blame them because I’ve allow. I allow all the words and actions to affect me as a person. I’ve allow them to affect others lives by association because they will affect my life so much. I say things and it seems like nothing changes. I’m done with talking about my issues since I already know what is going on. I’ve been done all I’ve been doing is giving it to God. I know people won’t believe me and think I am denial from all of this but im not. I’ve lost my motivation in life and strength. It’s no excuse but I just want this to change so I have to make it change. I know I been causing stress to people and its all my fault. I am not happy and I haven’t lived my life. I pray that I haven’t lost my best friend her said her had to step away from this situation which I interpret me. I don’t love me the way that I should and I am learning how to handle that. I am praying not for myself but for someone else. I pray that Her will be able to pay her rent so her won't get evicted. Also pray that her and He will get back into a relationship.I pray he will let go of his angry, pride,and ego, so he can be there for Her. I pray that they will have no interferring into there relationship.I pray for relationship healing. I pray that Her and He will see how much they love each other and work it out. I pray that they will put aside their differences and hurt and pain and see what is in their hearts. I pray that God to search the hearts of all involved. I Pray God will work in each one to bring about forgiveness and peace. I know only God knows what really lies in people's hearts. I know only He can reveal it to them in a way that will bring humble repentance, forgiveness, and a sincere desire to do what is right. I also pray that they won't allow other people to affect their relationship. I also pray that they both will not be prideful and not focus on the hurt feelings that they have and work on working things out and able to trust one another. I also pray that finances get in order. I pray for finances to pay bills off that are behind. I also pray for strength as I am looking for a job. Lord I pray that I can be a better friend and not be swallow in my own problems.Well to tell you the truth I know they still want to be together I'm not stupid. You know they both are stubborn and hardheaded. When it comes to love I know they both love each other hard. I hate that people feel I don't want them together and that not true. People saying I'm part of the problem just because I'm her friend. I can see them working it out and not letting the outside world involving in there relationship. Here the thing I know 2 people one of them is my best friend. Well her was dating this guy for 4 years and they were living together. Well 2 times they broke up one time her kick him out because he wasn't doing what he suppose to do in a relationship. I forgot to mention the place is in her name and her was paying all the bills. Well he wasn't helping her and all the money he was getting he was spending on himself. So I am upset because now they broke up and her started do the little things. Well her got tired and fed up with him for not helping her or anything. I hate that I wasn't a friend to her like I should of. See her is going through a lot and especially finances. Well this time around her ask him to leave because he thinks it was best for themselves to get things together for themselves. Now her regret it and he doesn't want anything to do with her and I hate how it ended. Maybe I should of stop it but I want them to work it out. I feel horrible and it's eating me alive and I don't know what to do. I pray for healing. I pray that I can rebuild situation with others. I pray that everyone won't think I'm jealous of want one relationship instead I am extremely happy for them. I pray that I can be friends with He and he will allow everything that happen to be in the past leave it there.I pray we can repair our friendship.i was in involved in this relationship more than I realized. I became an threat and I don't want to be and now people think I personally wanted this to happen in which I don't. I don't know what to do to fix this situation.I wanted to call and talk to you but I felt that idk if you wanted to talk so I decided to write. I am not coming to talk to you just because of this situation and I feel guilty. I feel like that the reason I am coming to talk to you. I since that, but it isn't , because I am wrong for a lot. I can write a long list over the years. I wanted to write and come from the heart. I wanted to come talk to you about everything. This situation was the thing that made me evaluate my actions. I have analyzed so much and I see the error of my ways. I know I was wrong for the way I talk to you and I completely sorry. I want to tell you that I always wanted your relationship to work and I am never against it. I know that I wasn't the best to you as a person. Most of the time I tried to stay out of stuff and let 2 of you work it out and when I was ,I made things worst. I been knowing you for a while. I know you are a good person and I know how much you love Her. I feel guilty for the way I treated you and you don't deserve that. I evaluated myself and notice a lot. For a minute now I've been dealing with the situation that I put her in 2 years ago. I am still dealing with that to this day. I am frustrated with a lot and I shouldn't of lash out on you the way I did. I didn't mean anything I said but I know it's hard for you to believe me. I should watch what I saying because I was completely wrong.I shouldn't said it and it was hurtful. I should of said y'all should of talk instead of not saying that. Also I should of been there instead of being wrong, and I should if did a lot of things. I feel like I waited to late but there isn't like the present. I know everyone make mistakes in life, and I know people do things out of frustrating and regret what they did. It's the forgiveness that people do after wards. I wish I knew how exactly you felt and when you told me that you wanted to marry her, I felt stupid as hell for the shit I've said. I should of stop things but I didn't want to make things even worst. I should said fight for this and don't give up because this happen. I also wish I said whatever happens is between you two and not any one else. I know now how I should handle situation with people. Honestly, i want everything to be okay and for you get to the point on where you and Her can work things out. I know her was stress about what happen in her life and her wasn't thinking and felt overly emotionally. I believe her has so much on her and finances take the part. I know I should of stop her and stop you. I should of said said a lot. I know her is full of regret and want you together, I just know. Her said things without thinking things through. I hope the damage can be repair and you can live y'all lives uninterrupted. I regret everything I did and I didn't make things better. I did the same things and didn't think and just talk witout meaning anything I said. I know her regret things as well. I didn't know how I should approach you after the many mistake I made. There was plenty of times where I wanted to have an conversation but couldn't get the nerve to say anything. I should of consider your feelings as well, and I am completely sorry. In the present and future, I will watch what I say or do.I have been wrong for a while now. I didn't realized how I treated you and I know it wasn't right. This situation has taught me a lot about how I treat people, how I come off, my negative ways, and my communication. I look back in the past 2 years I havent been myself. I have been existing and not living. I look back to numerous situation and one thing came to mind is that I should of included you more and I should of came and talk to you. I know at times I felt like you didn't like me but I shouldn't of assume. I should sat down and have an conversation with you. I know it has been a lot of damage and I didn't want you to think I didn't want y'all together. I always wanted y'all together and I should of showed you more than I did. I disrespected you by my actions. I will prove to you and anyone else that I mean what I say. I am completely out of you two relationship and I believe in my heart this can be repaired. I want the two of you reconcile and make the relationship work. I am working on myself and I came to conclusion about myself. I wish you could of told me what I was doing because I was walking in motion all this time and not being aware of my actions. Actually I've been a horrible friend to the both of you. There are things i need to do better but at the end of the day I wasn't. I feel that people think I didn't want y'all to be together and I was jealous of your relationship. I am not jealous and I want y'all to work. I wish I can rewind back time and change all my mistakes and correct them. This is about everything and I know what I got to do to improve myself and I want to tell me how you feel about me. I wish we all can move forward and the damage can be repair. I had good intentions reaching out to people and I want to prove that I care. I know now that wasn't the best approach. I'm not saying I was right and most of the times I was in the middle of the relationship (comparing to the outside world). I want to show you how much I want the two of you to be together and not just saying that. I am willing to,show by my actions. What do I have to do to make this right? What can I do to fix this situation so we will be cool and you and Her will be together. I am willing to do anything. If you want to talk to me I would love to hear what you say. I know whatever you got to say won't be pleasant to me. I deserve that. I know you are a good person for Her and I admire how you are pursing your dreams. I also admire how you won't let anyone dictate your life. I've pray to god about my actions, words, ways, and for him to fix me.I don't know how you feel about me or anything. I just want the both of you to go,back to how things were. I don’t want to lose relationship in my life while I am working on myself. I've been reading the bible more and one I don't want you to feel like I am playing god but I'm not. I am praying for the both of you as well. In 2Cor 5:18, 19
To wit, that God was in Christ, reconciling the world unto himself, not imputing their trespasses unto them; and hath committed unto us the word of reconciliation. I know things will work out. I feel that stressed took over and allow things to happen, but I know now this can fix between the two of you. I will fight to fix this between Her and yourself because I believe something is there and you both are destine to be together. God put the both of you for a reason and I see a future with you two. I see the marriage and kids. It took me a minute to see it but I see it clearer than ever. I was clouded by my own mistakes and life that I didn't take the time to look. Not anymore. I hope you take the time to forgive me and also have your relationship back with Her. I pray your relationship will be stronger than ever. I just want you to get back together soon (maybe today) but I will allow that to be between you, Her and God. I pray that Her and He will make it through and he will let a pride and ego let it go, but listen to his heart. I pray that He and can be friends again. I push my best friend away that her wants to be done with me. I don't want to talk about problems but I can’t seem to be strong the way that I need to be. I need help with myself. Also I am praying to become a stronger person and not weak minded. I am praying that I can clear my mind and fill it with positivity. I pray that I can become financial comfortable and not be stress about money. God have mercy on all our souls. Jesus name I pray amen.
 
O God, our heavenly Father, who loves mankind and is infinitely merciful and compassionate, have mercy upon your servants for whom I humbly pray to you, and commend to your gracious care and protection. Be their guide and guardian in all their endeavors, lead them in the path of your truth, and draw them nearer to you, that they may lead a godly and righteous life in your love and fear; doing your will in all things. Give them grace that they may be temperate, industrious, diligent, devout and charitable. Defend them against the assaults of the enemy, and grant them wisdom and strength to resist all temptation and corruption of this life; and direct them in the way of salvation, through the merits of your Son, our Savior Jesus Christ, I pray, Amen
 
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