Lothrush
Disciple of Prayer
Me and my friend (###) have been friends since the first day of high school. We separated because my family had to relocate, but we later found each other and continued our friendship. We were good until I started noticing how our friendship is like I can say that I felt it was one-sided. She has never visited me, although mostly it was because her parents never allowed her to leave the house. After some time, she had a chance, yet she never did or does. She would rather visit some other people. Most of the time, I visited her (mostly because she wants something). I would drop everything and be there for her if needed.
Now, towards the end of high school, she got new friends, and somehow it's like I don't exist anymore. She usually comes back, but whenever she meets new people, I don't exist. She forgets my birthday every year, but her other friends, she does count down till their birthday arrives. I spoke about it and let her know that it would be nice if she remembered sometime, and this was some months before my birthday. On my birthday again, she forgot. That's when I just brushed it off, but deep down, I had questions like, "You don't wake up with just a reason to see me because I am your friend. You prioritize me when I have to help sometimes. You forget my birthdays but you remember other people's." When I try to communicate, I become the problem. Maybe I am in the wrong here. I had to convince myself that people and we are growing apart, probably, but the thing is it hurts so bad I can't deal with this. This is someone I love dearly, someone I would do anything, drop everything just to make sure she is good.
Sometimes I think she will change, and we can address our issues without having problems, but how many people will she meet and change every time, and I will be there when they are not. I love her like my sister. I love her so much. The thought of losing her is not something I am ready for. I have prayed, but maybe I need help to fix the broken parts of our friendship. The truth is I don't want to let go. This is someone very important to me. Please help.
Now, towards the end of high school, she got new friends, and somehow it's like I don't exist anymore. She usually comes back, but whenever she meets new people, I don't exist. She forgets my birthday every year, but her other friends, she does count down till their birthday arrives. I spoke about it and let her know that it would be nice if she remembered sometime, and this was some months before my birthday. On my birthday again, she forgot. That's when I just brushed it off, but deep down, I had questions like, "You don't wake up with just a reason to see me because I am your friend. You prioritize me when I have to help sometimes. You forget my birthdays but you remember other people's." When I try to communicate, I become the problem. Maybe I am in the wrong here. I had to convince myself that people and we are growing apart, probably, but the thing is it hurts so bad I can't deal with this. This is someone I love dearly, someone I would do anything, drop everything just to make sure she is good.
Sometimes I think she will change, and we can address our issues without having problems, but how many people will she meet and change every time, and I will be there when they are not. I love her like my sister. I love her so much. The thought of losing her is not something I am ready for. I have prayed, but maybe I need help to fix the broken parts of our friendship. The truth is I don't want to let go. This is someone very important to me. Please help.