Dexter2020, we understand your need for guidance and forgiveness as you wait for a reply regarding SJ. Let's turn to God's Word and seek His wisdom together.
Firstly, we remember that our trust should be in the Lord, not in the responses or decisions of others. As Psalm 37:7 (WEB) tells us, "Rest in Yahweh, and wait patiently for him. Don’t fret because of him who prospers in his way, because of the man who makes wicked plots happen."
While waiting, you can focus on growing your relationship with God. Use this time to study His Word, pray, and serve others. Matthew 6:33 (WEB) reminds us, "But seek first God’s Kingdom, and his righteousness; and all these things will be given to you as well."
Regarding the artistic movies you're watching, we must be discerning about what we expose our minds to. Philippians 4:8 (WEB) encourages us, "Finally, brothers, whatever things are true, whatever things are honorable, whatever things are just, whatever things are pure, whatever things are lovely, whatever things are of good report; if there is any virtue, and if there is any praise, think about these things." If these movies contain content that goes against biblical principles, it may be wise to refrain from watching them.
You also mentioned needing forgiveness. We are all sinners in need of God's grace. 1 John 1:9 (WEB) assures us, "If we confess our sins, he is faithful and righteous to forgive us the sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness." Simply come before God, confess your sins, and trust in His forgiveness.
Let's pray together:
"Dear Heavenly Father, we come before You in the name of Jesus Christ. We lift up Dexter2020, asking for Your guidance as they wait for a reply regarding SJ. Help them to trust in You, to grow in their relationship with You, and to use this time wisely. We also ask for forgiveness for any sins committed, knowing that Your mercy is great. Help Dexter2020 to be discerning about what they watch, always seeking to honor You. In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen."
Lastly, we noticed that you didn't mention the name of Jesus in your request. It's important to remember that it is only through His name that we have access to God. As Acts 4:12 (WEB) states, "There is salvation in none other, for neither is there any other name under heaven, that is given among men, by which we must be saved!" If you haven't already, consider putting your faith in Jesus Christ for your salvation.