Analysyn
Disciple of Prayer
Prayer is good. I have requested prayer before. People don't actually hear you though. I feel like God hears me, but churches can make you feel small. "God only helps those who help themselves.""God will only help you in the amount of your faith." My problem is that I love my Father, but I am at a loss. I know you may want me to get to the point. I am a single mother of an 11 year old child. Through discrimination, racism, and bullying, Brick and Mortar schools (teachers, staff, and kids) tried to destroy my child. Now she has a problem urinating on herself. WA state has a ;law that says you can't video tape anyone unless you have their permission. So Brick and Mortar schools get to do whatever they want, so I pulled her out of them. When I pulled her out, she was suicidal and hated everything about herself. We are struggling now to find our place in this world. We wish we could go to Africa and be accepted....away from a country that hates the color of our skin. We are currently couch surfing. The Pacific Northwest has made me bitter a lot more towards white people. They are good about covering up their indiscretions with laws that protect them and hurt African Americans. I have tried getting a job, but I have had very little luck. I have been to 19 states and have never been on Section 8 until I came here. Now I just want to get out and help my daughter to have more confidence in herself. God, please help me with stable housing, discernment, a good place for my daughter to go to school, a good neighborhood for us to live in, stable employment, and help my daughter and I to not be so depressed. We both need help. If you don't listen to me, listen to her cry just like you did with Hagar's Baby. Help us. Tell me what to do. I am a turtle when I am depressed. All I want to do is hide in my shell. Help my unbelief. Help my daughter and I to grow, succeed, and have confidence in ourselves. Help us to love you more. We don't want to live on the streets. She cries out to you. Please answer her. If you only help her, I will be grateful. Help me to learn how to parent her more efficiently. Give me direction. Give me life. I feel like I am withering. Hear what is in my heart. No one loves us like you do. We really have no one. I seal all of this in the blood of Jesus. In Jesus name I pray. Amen.