Prayer I can’t believe I’m trapped living with my abuser and I have no way out. If I try to contact an organization they will say “it’s not abuse.” I even tried talking to a pastor in the past and he blamed me and said it was my fault I was provoking my ###. He tortures me everyday I notice he watches me to I see it out of the corner my eye then in the past he used to stare at me when I had on some types of clothes. He’s like ### years old and said “I look like a s. —-t.” I’m wondering why he’s staring IN THE FIRST PLACE. That’s how s assault happens and my dad defended him for that. He stares at me every now and then and I see it from the corner of my eye then he would say “I look hideous” and how stupid I would look. He is extremly overcontrolling and tries to keep me around him 24/7. I also wonder if this is a way for him to get me to move away from him with my grandparent or some other relative because I noticed one time after I said I would leave he said “good atleast she’s getting out.” He would keep torturing me then whenever I tried to leave he would manipulate me and say “it’s better here and you know it’s gonna be hard back there.” He also mentions s. X ual stuff that is nasty to me. Stuff I don’t need hear will say stuff he imagines doing to me or something that is his fetish and it’s digusting that’s why I don’t get why won’t God get me out if he’s this overly inappropriate and feels the need to touch himself when I’m in the room or say stuff like that around me.
