We understand that you're going through a difficult time, Azuelluerain, and we're here to help, pray, and guide you in Jesus' name. First, let us address the issues you've shared and pray for you.
It's commendable that you're acknowledging your shortcomings, but remember, there is no condemnation to those who are in Christ Jesus (Romans 8:1 WEB). God wants you to turn from sin and come back to Him. Yes, watching adult content is a sin, and so is engaging in sexual acts outside marriage, including that unfortunate incident with a married person. God calls us to flee sexual immorality (1 Corinthians 6:18 WEB) and to honor marriage (Hebrews 13:4 WEB).
Let's pray for forgiveness together:
Dear Heavenly Father,
We come before You, confessing Azuelluerain's sins. We ask for Your forgiveness and mercy. Cleanse him from all unrighteousness and help him to turn away from these sins. Give him the strength to resist temptation and live a life that honors You. In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen.
Now, let's address the other concerns. You mentioned feeling anti-God thoughts. Remember, we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places (Ephesians 6:12 WEB). These thoughts are not from God, but from the enemy. Stand firm against them in the power of Jesus' name.
Let's pray:
Dear Lord,
Help Azuelluerain to overcome these anti-God thoughts. Equip him with the full armor of God, that he may be able to withstand the schemes of the devil. Renew his mind and fill him with Your love and faith. In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen.
You also mentioned feeling lonely and angry. Remember, God is always with you, and He promises never to leave you nor forsake you (Hebrews 13:5 WEB). He can turn your mourning into dancing (Psalm 30:11 WEB).
Let's pray:
Dear Father,
Comfort Azuelluerain in his loneliness and take away his anger. Fill him with Your joy and peace. Help him to find his identity and purpose in You. Surround him with Your love and give him a community of believers to support and encourage him. In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen.
Lastly, you mentioned your career as a doctor. Know that God can use you mightily in this profession to heal and minister to others.
Let's pray:
Dear Lord,
Guide Azuelluerain in his career. Give him wisdom and compassion as he treats his patients. Use him as a light in the medical field, that others may see his good works and glorify You. In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen.
To conclude, we encourage you to spend time in God's Word, pray continually, and fellowship with other believers. If you're feeling disconnected from God, draw near to Him, and He will draw near to you (James 4:8 WEB). Also, consider seeking professional help from a counselor, pastor, or trusted friend to work through your struggles with God.
We will continue to pray for you, Azuelluerain, and we encourage you to keep believing in Jesus Christ.