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Hello everyone! Let's lift up these needs in prayer:
cisco
Disciple of Prayer
I urgently need prayers for i have been in a depression for years. I've prayed constantly, but for some reason i can't move on. I can't feel happiness but i know prayer is the only thing i can do. The whole thing has given me thoughts of God neglecting me, which is why for years the sadness has been so dominant that it has severally effected me and maybe endangering my future.
Years ago, i lost someone who i really loved. She cheated on me. I really loved her... eventually she came back because of her being heart broken by the guy she left me for. I took her back.. but she lost all feelings for me, and left me again. She later then returns, we sort of come back again but she eventually left me and moved to a new country. there is more to the story and i don't want to flood too much detail to give a long read. But i additionally have my faults as well such as saying things out of my anger that i literally wish i was wise enough not to say. Before she left, i was so angry that she wouldn't even give me the chance to have at least 1 talk on the phone with her, just to make my self feel better. but no.. now she's been out of the country and i know i can't force any form of talk. It's like she forgot and lost all sort of care for me.. i don't know. I can't do any form of communication anymore because it would be wrong... i've been wanting to try again but it's already been awhile and i can't force myself in her life.
The issue of resentment grew in me that even when I pray for the strength to forgive, my heart can't really come into those terms. It needs too because i know how it can additionally be dangerous to my health. I became a very bitter person who literally can't see anything positive nor say anything.
In truth, my heart still is in pain and hopeful for a reconciliation of some sort but i know as well that i have to move on. I ask that you may pray for god not to ignore me, and save me from this sadness. To forgive me and to give me the strength to let go and find happiness.
I've prayed for so long but i can't get this answered. But what else can i do for help other than pray?
1 I don't know if i want for her and I to be restored
2 For me to have some "justice" by God giving her a taste of what it feels like
3 or move on and give up on her.
I know that 2 is not a thing to pray for... and i do not entertain that but deep down i have to admit that my bitterness causes me to want this but i do as much as possible to not think of that.
please pray... maybe God is so angry at me and sees me unworthy which is why I can't get his hand to come into this depression of mine. I don't have a job, i lost the girl i love very harshly, and I am so afraid of my future if i will self-destruct and destroy my own life because of this depression. It's been years.. i need help. I need my lord to save me.
Years ago, i lost someone who i really loved. She cheated on me. I really loved her... eventually she came back because of her being heart broken by the guy she left me for. I took her back.. but she lost all feelings for me, and left me again. She later then returns, we sort of come back again but she eventually left me and moved to a new country. there is more to the story and i don't want to flood too much detail to give a long read. But i additionally have my faults as well such as saying things out of my anger that i literally wish i was wise enough not to say. Before she left, i was so angry that she wouldn't even give me the chance to have at least 1 talk on the phone with her, just to make my self feel better. but no.. now she's been out of the country and i know i can't force any form of talk. It's like she forgot and lost all sort of care for me.. i don't know. I can't do any form of communication anymore because it would be wrong... i've been wanting to try again but it's already been awhile and i can't force myself in her life.
The issue of resentment grew in me that even when I pray for the strength to forgive, my heart can't really come into those terms. It needs too because i know how it can additionally be dangerous to my health. I became a very bitter person who literally can't see anything positive nor say anything.
In truth, my heart still is in pain and hopeful for a reconciliation of some sort but i know as well that i have to move on. I ask that you may pray for god not to ignore me, and save me from this sadness. To forgive me and to give me the strength to let go and find happiness.
I've prayed for so long but i can't get this answered. But what else can i do for help other than pray?
1 I don't know if i want for her and I to be restored
2 For me to have some "justice" by God giving her a taste of what it feels like
3 or move on and give up on her.
I know that 2 is not a thing to pray for... and i do not entertain that but deep down i have to admit that my bitterness causes me to want this but i do as much as possible to not think of that.
please pray... maybe God is so angry at me and sees me unworthy which is why I can't get his hand to come into this depression of mine. I don't have a job, i lost the girl i love very harshly, and I am so afraid of my future if i will self-destruct and destroy my own life because of this depression. It's been years.. i need help. I need my lord to save me.
