Anonymous
Beloved of All
I'm asking for prayer to move on to a better and beneficial job that could potentially be a career that I enjoy and can see myself in for the long run. I've been blessed to have had the opportunity to work alongside a longtime friend (who is my boss) for a little over two years now. It was a blessing in disguise to be able to get this chance to do something in my life that I didn't think I would be qualified for. I appreciate my boss and all that they have done for me, but I have noticed sometime last year, there has been a huge shift where I no longer desire to go to work or deal with anyone. I noticed that I was losing myself and becoming angrier and irritable and very annoyed with the whole entire workplace. There were times that I slightly got into it with my boss because I allowed my emotions to take over, not realizing that it was not about me, but instead, it was just business. I don't like the person that I have become. I don't like coming home from work feeling very irritated because of the things and people I dealt with at work. I used to be excited to go to work because I enjoyed my co-workers and helping people. I'm a people person. But over the past year, I've struggled to try to make it work and even pretended to be excited to go to work and help people. I've tried countless of times on trying to move on, but I stayed, knowing that it did not make me happy, just to please my boss and their business plan. I've prayed and prayed and asked God why am I still working there because at some point I did not see the purpose anymore. I don't have the passion like I used to and when I think a change to help me grow comes around, I get pushed steps back. I'm not me nor the person God wants me to be when I work at my current job. I'm surrounded by negativity, mixed with positivity, compliments and gossip. i'm trying my best to stay positive by helping bring up prayers for specific situations or offer to do prayer journals. I don't want my last days on this Earth to be of negativity, stress and anger. I get that we all go through a lot in our lives. I don't want to feel like I have to stay somewhere because I feel bad or its because I've known my boss basically my whole life. I'm tired of on walking on eggshells making sure I don't offend every single person. I'm tired of being nice and helpful but getting gossiped on. I know things take time, but I do think my time where I work is over. I want God to be able to use me in a work environment where I don't have to stress so much, I bring it home. I want a place where I can enjoy, but doesn't take away my happiness and my peace. Please pray for me as I try to see what God sees in me and has for me. Thank you!