We are thankful to join you in prayer, Nyfre, and we appreciate that you have come to us with your requests, acknowledging the power of Jesus' name. Remember, it is only by the name of Jesus that we have access to God. As it is written in John 14:6 WEB:
Jesus said to him, I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me.
Firstly, we rejoice with you as you healing from your morning sickness and your recovery has been evident for a week now. We give all the glory to God for bringing you through this, and we trust that His healing power continues to sustain you.
We stand with you in asking God for healing, strength, protection, and provision. We pray that God's hedge of protection will surround you and your family, guarding you from all harm and danger. Remember the promise in Psalm 91:9-12 WEB:
Because you have made Yahweh your refuge, and the Most High your dwelling place, no evil shall befall you, neither shall any plague come near your dwelling. For he will put his angels in charge of you, to guard you in all your ways. They will bear you up in their hands, so that you won't dash your foot against a stone. For you will tread on the lion and cobra. You will trample the young lion and the serpent underfoot.
We also lift up your financial needs to the Lord, trusting that He will provide for you and your boys, not just for your daily needs but also for the joy of celebrating Christmas together. We stand on the promise in Philippians 4:6-7 WEB:
Have no anxiety at all, but in everything by prayer and petition with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your thoughts in Christ Jesus. And Philippians 4:19 WEB notes:
And my God will supply every need of yours according to his riches in glory in Christ Jesus.
Regarding your son struggling with autism, you have asked Jesus for healing. We can present that request before God for healing. Consider Acts 3:6-7 as an example of presenting the sick before God for healing in Jesus name:
But Peter said, Silver and gold have I none, but what I have, that I give you. In the name of Jesus Christ of Nazareth, get up and walk! He took him by the right hand, and raised him up. Immediately his feet and his ankle bones received strength.
We praise God for your commitment to helping others and spreading His word, even in the midst of your own trials. May God continue to give you strength and grace to shine His light to those around you. It is wonderful that you are considering the spiritual wellbeing of your boyfriend of 14 years. Are you two pursuing a marriage commitment before the Lord, or are you merely cohabiting as a long-term boyfriend and girlfriend? If you do intend to get married, then it should be to a Christian Believer with goal of bringing God glory through your marriage. If that is the case, know that his years of personally knowing you will be great for the longevity of your future marriage. Consider 2 Corinthians 6:14 WEB:
"Don't be unequally yoked with unbelievers, for what fellowship have righteousness and iniquity? Or what communion has light with darkness?" Believers should marry Believers because that is the design for marriage as shown in 2 Corinthians 6:14
If he has no desire to pursue a marriage commitment or is not a Christian Believer, then we encourage you to consider God's design for relationships and reevaluate your current situation. As followers of Christ, we are called to flee from sexual immorality and pursue righteousness. If there is any sexual immorality in your relationship with your boyfriend described as ups and downs, it must be addressed. Since this is not discussed it cannot be rebuked, nor can your intentions be known. It is very important to know that "ups and downs" are any indication of sexual immorality, it should end immediately. Consider 1 Corinthians chapter 6:18 WEB:
Flee sexual immorality. Every sin that a man does is outside the body, but he who commits sexual immorality sins against his own body.
We also pray for him, that God may soften his heart, grant him understanding, and draw him closer to Himself. Remember 1 Corinthians 7:12-16 WEB:
But to the rest I—not the Lord—say, if any brother has an unbelieving wife, and she is content to live with him, let him not leave her. The woman who has an unbelieving husband, and he is content to live with her, let her not leave the husband. For the unbelieving husband is sanctified in the wife, and the unbelieving wife is sanctified in the husband. Otherwise your children would be unclean, but now they are holy. Yet if the unbeliever departs, let there be separation. The brother or the sister is not under bondage in such cases, but God has called us in peace. For how do you know, wife, whether you will save your husband? Or how do you know, husband, whether you will save your wife?
Regarding his lack of understanding towards your struggles, we encourage you to communicate openly with him about your feelings and the challenges you face. It is important to seek a person who can support you often in prayer as a husband and can take up his role as the head of the home. Commit to pray together being aware of your different roles as a husband and wife and a father and mother before God.
Lastly, we uphold your two oldest sons as they begin wrestling, asking God to protect them from all harm and injury. May He grant them strength, skill, and sportsmanship as they compete.
All of this we lay before your Heavenly Father as we tirelessly pray on your behalf.