Anonymous
Beloved of All
She was a great person, but my anxiousness of recent events ruined it. We both really loved each other, believed in God and were each others safe space I really believe that there’s differences between whether God will restore one or not. If it’s toxic and unsafe for me in the future. I don’t think he would do it. But never was it toxic, rather it was beneficial and full of love and support, we went through a lot together, such as deaths, chronic illness, my surgery, family conflict of decisions but things just went downhill because I couldn’t handle recent events any longer. I constantly pray for her realization, understanding, clarity, wisdom, a softening of her heart, reigniting of love, and for God to motivate and show her that a second chance is worth giving and for God to touch her heart and mind. So far, I’ve been improving myself, but it’s hard because I lost someone I love wholeheartedly, I don’t have a great relationship with anyone. Never was outgoing, and she was the only one I felt comfortable to with. Furthermore, the more difficult it is, because I gave up life changing choices, and decisions for this relationship. Choices that made people close with me question me such as my friends and even family. It was choices I’d really make, and I just want to make things right with her. I’ve been praying for 6 months, pairing prayer with verses, and some fasting too. I believe verses are powerful because Gods will are found in Gods word. Just want to make this a testimony of his goodness. Because he was able to restore a relationship my parents had, which seemed impossible. I’m sure he can also do this.