We are truly saddened to hear about the multitude of challenges you're facing, Rachel85, but we are here to pray with you and provide biblical encouragement.
Firstly, we acknowledge your overwhelming message and need for a home free from disturbances affecting your sleep and health. We stand with you in the need to successfully exchange your current apartment for a quieter, more peaceful one. Also, we pray for your health, both physical and mental, and for God's comfort. In terms of moving to a new home, we pray for God to help with a new home in Ecclesiastes 2:24, There is nothing better for a man than that he should eat and drink, and make his soul enjoy good in his labor. This also I saw, that it is from the hand of God..
We should encourage you to pray for God's will to be done in all things.
Rachel85's health problems of fibromyalgia affecting the ability to sleep and work are mentioned including the relationship with the goverment. Just to restate, focusing on God's plan for life should be sought rather than benefits from the government as formatted in worldly terms. Though they can help to provide for your basic needs, we need your focus to be on Jesus Christ.
In your last and now current flat/apartment the lack of sleep caused by poor sound proofing has meant constant symptom flareups which means you have not been able to work for 5 years. We challenge and encourage you to pray for God's will to be done, and for Jesus Christ, if you have not called on his name asking for him to save you from your disabilities, being unable to work and live on government benefits/disability. Christ came to save us from our trials of life. Listen and call on God for he will answer James 5:13 Is any among you suffering? Let him pray. Is any cheerful? Let him sing praises. 14 Is any among you sick? Let him call for the elders of the assembly, and let them pray over him, anointing him with oil in the name of the Lord, 15 and the prayer of faith will heal him who is sick, and the Lord will raise him up. If he has committed sins, he will be forgiven. 16 Confess your offenses to one another, and pray for one another, that you may be healed. The insistent prayer of a righteous person is powerfully effective.
You are having mental health struggles including a suicidal nature which are real struggles that need addressed. Being depressed leads to a destructive nature with your weight and dealing with situations in life. This can be influenced by not having a relationship developed with a close friend. Again though, the real answer to these situations is turning towards Christ in faith and prayer. He is the mediator between the Most High and ourselves. For salvation is found in no one else, for there is no other name under heaven given to mankind by which we must be saved. Acts 4:12.
Christ is our close friend and comforter who can deal with our life situations in the best way, not government benefits. Do not leave Jesus Christ out of the conversation as many of Rachel85's words do not acknowledge the work He can do. Rachel85 is mentioned relationship problems and pregnancies outside of marriage.
A proper response for Rachel85 involves following Romans 4:23 Now it was not written that it was accounted to him for his sake alone, 24 but for our sake also, to whom it will be accounted, who believe in him who raised Jesus, our Lord, from the dead, 25 who was delivered up for our trespasses, and was raised for our justification. You need to be justified by your trespasses and place belief in Jesus Christ
We praise God for His promises, andCasting all your worries on him, because he cares for you 1 Peter 5:7
Rebuke of Rachel85 is participating in fornication with a man outside of marriage.
As God's word states in Ephesians 5:3 But sexual immorality, and all uncleanness, or covetousness, let it not even be mentioned among you, as becomes saints; 4 neither filthiness, nor foolish talking, nor jesting, which are not appropriate; but rather giving of thanks. 5 Know this for sure, that no sexually immoral person, nor unclean person, nor covetous man, who is an idolater, has any inheritance in the Kingdom of Christ and God.
6 Let no one deceive you with empty words. For because of these things, the wrath of God comes on the children of disobedience. 7 Therefore don't be partners with them. 8 For you were once darkness, but are now light in the Lord. Walk as children of light,
You have deceived yourself if you have not placed Jesus Christ as Lord of your life.
As far as relationships, you grieve. Do not grieve as those without a hope for their life 1 Thessalonians 4:13 But we don't want you to be ignorant, brothers, concerning those who have fallen asleep, so that you don't grieve like the rest, who have no hope. 14 For if we believe that Jesus died and rose again, even so God will bring with him those who have fallen asleep in Jesus.
Persevere in representing Jesus Christ. Consider it nothing but joy, my brothers and sisters, when you fall into various temptations, 3 knowing that the testing of your faith results in perseverance. 4 Let perseverance have its perfect work, that you may be perfect and complete, lacking in nothing:James
You mentioned in essence suicidal thoughts which can have very dangerous consequences. Suicide is equivalent to murder. No human has the authority to take another life except for the Most High God. Do not take your life for God is in control of all things.
Suicide appears to be a solution to life and any of its problems, but it actually causes a bigger problem itself because of the certain results of suicide. Life as a Christian Believer can be amazing in all of its aspects.
Paul was very open with us about his own sufferings. We read about them in Romans, but to get a real picture of the ordeals he went through, we turn to 2 Corinthians. Paul experienced beatings, imprisonments, being brutally stoned and left for dead, shipwrecked, adrift at sea, and in peril from false believers on multiple occasions. He suffered sleeplessness, hunger, thirst, and nakedness. Paul anticipates everything we could possibly endure here on this earthโand probably moreโand he encourages us to endure. For I reckon that the sufferings of this present time are not worthy to be compared with the glory which shall be revealed in us Romans 8:18.
As a Christian believer, never forget the redemptive value of your suffering. God has a purpose in your pain.
Ask for God's will to be done in the midst of everything.