Anonymous
Beloved of All
Please pray for me as I am dealing with many negative thoughts of fear, depression, self-loathing, self-rejection, and loneliness. I have been isolating myself away from people, including my parents who are 84 and 85 years of age. I have been unemployed since 2012, and have given up on myself. I feel hopeless and that I cannot cope with life, much less focus on Christ and live for Him. I am afraid of the future and what it holds. My father has been diagnosed with Alzheimer's, my mother has health problems, and I have an older sister who institutionalized for bipolar depression and schizophrenia! Oh, and I have an older brother who hates me because I have lived off of my parents. In fact, he recently called me a worthless leach!! I feel like life is drudgery and I have NOTHING to live for!! I am idle most of the time and feel like I am a waste. Surely God must be very angry with me because I am a very selfish person who only cares about herself and never thinks about anyone else, including her parents and sister. I hate myself and my life!!! Why can't I experience some satisfaction and peace like most other people I know?