Cyriamore
Disciple of Prayer
Please pray for peace at my heart.. i have already posted my request regarding my brother who took money from me for his daughter birthday but still not returned..I have asked him twice I gave him 25k..he returned 10k still not giving my money back..we used to pray as family every Saturday and before going to church in the time of giving tithe but wanted he ignored and he is only praying with his wife..me and my mom left alone at home..we not going anywhere as a family..if his wife went to hometown he is scolding us for getting food outside but when his wife at home..he is buying all grocery and food.. yesterday I felt very bad..my brother ignored me and my mom and went to pray with pastor giving only his tithe..I am sorry but I need peace I want to pray and bring it to jesus it's bothering me always..there is no value for good heart in this world, only money matters..I used to pray for my brother for his salvation and marriage and financially support him and give all my money even I know he is spending money with his friends and drinking use to pray God to touch him..I trusted and loved my family and never buy anything for me..but he forgot everything and always praise his wife and his family because of his family he is doing good financially and spiritually. I ignored all good alliance because to settle my brother since we don't have father..I told my brother to get married but ever since he got married he is always focusing on his own family..whole 1 year every month visiting his mother in law home.. leaving me and my mom alone at home..used to stay there weeks together..again they want to shift home separately and took one big house 3bhk for his wife mother to visit us often..I haved saved few amount everything I gave for lease since my brother is struggling to fix the home but no gratitude for him..he only acknowledges whatever his wife side giving..now he was slowing telling me to help him to take personal loan for own house..every Saturday and Sunday taking his daughter and wife outside..we are always at home even I asked him for family trip not at all listening..not coming for family prayers and not eating together as a family..am so fed up.. because of relatives pressure he is searching some alliance for me not whole heartedly forwarding whatever he gets..there is lots age gap around 8 years whatever alliance he sends and telling my mom she will get like this only..am really broken and disinterested towards life and marriage..all of my life I loved my family but they changed..how can I except someone to show love for me..