Let's continue to lift up Smilee for complete healing from surgery. "He sent His word and healed them" (Ps. 107:20). Praying for no stiffness, a strengthened and straightened knee, and a perfect walk. Trusting Jesus for a quick return to work. In His name! 
Anonymous
Beloved of All
I posted a prayer request in the fall for my marriage. My husband and I had separated on rough terms after his struggle with substance addiction post military service. It's been almost ten months since I last saw him and he has not attempted to see our children. He disappeared and didn't want to be found.
Eventually, we started talking via email which is how we now communicate. I felt helpless and no matter what I did he kept us all at a distance while he continue to do drugs and (as I came to find out) sleep with random women. In January, I finally started to pick myself back up and focused on the ministry that we were building. Since then, I've gotten stronger mentally, physically and spiritually.
He started showing some signs of being kind after months of telling me that I needed to give up on ever being back together. I tried opening up some, but he only became cold again. He filed for divorce last October and it felt like it was meant to hurt me. I faced anxiety, depression and confusion for many months. I ended up talking to a Christian marriage counselor by myself and that truly opened more doors for me to work on the things I needed to.
My husband ended up dragging the divorce out so long that it expired and the court closed it. I reminded him of each date thinking it's what he wanted, but he let it time out. All while still not saying he wanted to reconcile. I eventually let it go and threw myself into my work, our five children and getting everything in our lives together. I applied to go back to college and began building the ministry we spoke of wanting. God has done incredible things within the ministry and it's growing.
Shortly after the last time he was cruel, I started talking to another man via text and over the phone. It didn't work out and never went past a hug, but I was honest with my husband that I was talking to him. It set my husband into a spiral and he started talking to an older woman that was a little younger than his mother. He moved in with her and then announced that they were dating.
I began pursuing divorce options in conversation. I've talked to him about me wanting divorce and have asked him to refile. He said he would, but still has not. Instead, he moved from CO to New England with the woman. New England is our family's favorite place and the place we thought about settling in. I don't understand why he is there though. Maybe it's where the woman lives. The move only adds to my confusion.
I recently saw him in pictures. He looks like he might be doing better with his addiction, but his eyes have a lonely distress in them. I don't know what to make of it, because he only continues to push his relationship out into the open for everyone to see. I know that people are wondering what's going on in his life and are confused about the person he's with. It's all so confusing for me.
I've found myself wanting the divorce just to end this endless confusion and humiliation. I want to tell myself that I'm not broken and humiliated by the recent events, but I am. I asked him to file for divorce again this month, but also told him that I'm no longer talking to anyone. Should I have hope? How could we possibly be together again? Does he actually care, because he's with someone else. I'm so confused.
I don't want to live like this anymore in this state of limbo. A large part of me wants this divorce, because of all that's happened but maybe I still love him. He was my best friend. I thought we would live the rest of our lives together. As tears stream down my face, I don't even know what to ask others to pray for. I know that prayer is needed though and I appreciate each person that is praying.
Eventually, we started talking via email which is how we now communicate. I felt helpless and no matter what I did he kept us all at a distance while he continue to do drugs and (as I came to find out) sleep with random women. In January, I finally started to pick myself back up and focused on the ministry that we were building. Since then, I've gotten stronger mentally, physically and spiritually.
He started showing some signs of being kind after months of telling me that I needed to give up on ever being back together. I tried opening up some, but he only became cold again. He filed for divorce last October and it felt like it was meant to hurt me. I faced anxiety, depression and confusion for many months. I ended up talking to a Christian marriage counselor by myself and that truly opened more doors for me to work on the things I needed to.
My husband ended up dragging the divorce out so long that it expired and the court closed it. I reminded him of each date thinking it's what he wanted, but he let it time out. All while still not saying he wanted to reconcile. I eventually let it go and threw myself into my work, our five children and getting everything in our lives together. I applied to go back to college and began building the ministry we spoke of wanting. God has done incredible things within the ministry and it's growing.
Shortly after the last time he was cruel, I started talking to another man via text and over the phone. It didn't work out and never went past a hug, but I was honest with my husband that I was talking to him. It set my husband into a spiral and he started talking to an older woman that was a little younger than his mother. He moved in with her and then announced that they were dating.
I began pursuing divorce options in conversation. I've talked to him about me wanting divorce and have asked him to refile. He said he would, but still has not. Instead, he moved from CO to New England with the woman. New England is our family's favorite place and the place we thought about settling in. I don't understand why he is there though. Maybe it's where the woman lives. The move only adds to my confusion.
I recently saw him in pictures. He looks like he might be doing better with his addiction, but his eyes have a lonely distress in them. I don't know what to make of it, because he only continues to push his relationship out into the open for everyone to see. I know that people are wondering what's going on in his life and are confused about the person he's with. It's all so confusing for me.
I've found myself wanting the divorce just to end this endless confusion and humiliation. I want to tell myself that I'm not broken and humiliated by the recent events, but I am. I asked him to file for divorce again this month, but also told him that I'm no longer talking to anyone. Should I have hope? How could we possibly be together again? Does he actually care, because he's with someone else. I'm so confused.
I don't want to live like this anymore in this state of limbo. A large part of me wants this divorce, because of all that's happened but maybe I still love him. He was my best friend. I thought we would live the rest of our lives together. As tears stream down my face, I don't even know what to ask others to pray for. I know that prayer is needed though and I appreciate each person that is praying.
