Prayer for My Marriage

[Anonymous]

I posted a prayer request in the fall for my marriage. My husband and I had separated on rough terms after his struggle with substance addiction post military service. It's been almost ten months since I last saw him and he has not attempted to see our children. He disappeared and didn't want to be found.

Eventually, we started talking via email which is how we now communicate. I felt helpless and no matter what I did he kept us all at a distance while he continue to do drugs and (as I came to find out) sleep with random women. In January, I finally started to pick myself back up and focused on the ministry that we were building. Since then, I've gotten stronger mentally, physically and spiritually.

He started showing some signs of being kind after months of telling me that I needed to give up on ever being back together. I tried opening up some, but he only became cold again. He filed for divorce last October and it felt like it was meant to hurt me. I faced anxiety, depression and confusion for many months. I ended up talking to a Christian marriage counselor by myself and that truly opened more doors for me to work on the things I needed to.

My husband ended up dragging the divorce out so long that it expired and the court closed it. I reminded him of each date thinking it's what he wanted, but he let it time out. All while still not saying he wanted to reconcile. I eventually let it go and threw myself into my work, our five children and getting everything in our lives together. I applied to go back to college and began building the ministry we spoke of wanting. God has done incredible things within the ministry and it's growing.

Shortly after the last time he was cruel, I started talking to another man via text and over the phone. It didn't work out and never went past a hug, but I was honest with my husband that I was talking to him. It set my husband into a spiral and he started talking to an older woman that was a little younger than his mother. He moved in with her and then announced that they were dating.

I began pursuing divorce options in conversation. I've talked to him about me wanting divorce and have asked him to refile. He said he would, but still has not. Instead, he moved from CO to New England with the woman. New England is our family's favorite place and the place we thought about settling in. I don't understand why he is there though. Maybe it's where the woman lives. The move only adds to my confusion.

I recently saw him in pictures. He looks like he might be doing better with his addiction, but his eyes have a lonely distress in them. I don't know what to make of it, because he only continues to push his relationship out into the open for everyone to see. I know that people are wondering what's going on in his life and are confused about the person he's with. It's all so confusing for me.

I've found myself wanting the divorce just to end this endless confusion and humiliation. I want to tell myself that I'm not broken and humiliated by the recent events, but I am. I asked him to file for divorce again this month, but also told him that I'm no longer talking to anyone. Should I have hope? How could we possibly be together again? Does he actually care, because he's with someone else. I'm so confused.

I don't want to live like this anymore in this state of limbo. A large part of me wants this divorce, because of all that's happened but maybe I still love him. He was my best friend. I thought we would live the rest of our lives together. As tears stream down my face, I don't even know what to ask others to pray for. I know that prayer is needed though and I appreciate each person that is praying.

 

[Articles]

Dear Lord,

We come to You in Jesus Name on behalf of Anonymous, asking for Your help and guidance in her marriage. She has been separated from her husband for almost ten months, and he has not attempted to see their children. He has been struggling with substance addiction, and has kept his family at a distance while continuing to do drugs.

We ask that You would bring healing and restoration to this marriage. Give Anonymous the strength and courage to keep praying and believing for a miracle. We pray that You would bring her husband back to his family and that he would turn away from his addiction. Give him a new heart and a new spirit, and help him to find the strength to overcome his struggles.

We thank You for Your faithfulness and for the hope that You give us. In Jesus Name, Amen.

 

[The Encourager]

I asked God in Jesus' name to answer your prayer request according to God's perfect love, wisdom, will, timing, grace, and mercy.

Prayer Focus: God I ask You in Jesus' name bless all those I love and care about to accept the gift of salvation through Christ Jesus. Save us all Lord Jesus and become our Savior and Lord. God may we all come to know, love, and live our lives to honor You. God bless each of us with the desire to read, listen to, and meditate upon Your Word daily. God bless us with the strength and spirit of obedience to be doers of Your Word and not just hearers and readers of Your Word. Bless us with love, power, and a sound mind. Heal each of us Lord Jesus in all areas of our lives. Bless us to prosper, have excellent health, and never stop growing in the grace and knowledge of Christ Jesus. Bless us with knowledge, wisdom, and understanding for the purpose you created each of us for. Bless us with the desire to seek Your face, embrace, and surrender to Your will. Bless and help each of us to endure hardness as a good soldier of Jesus Christ. God bless us with Your joy, peace, protection, prosperity, and success as we live our lives to please You. Rain down from heaven the blessings and the favor of GOD upon each of our lives, so that we will be blessed and be a blessing. Let each of us be a light in this dark world, lifting You up in the lifestyle we each live. God all that I have asked of You in this prayer, please do the same for the writer of this prayer and all those who truly want Your best for me. God Thank You. Thank You. Thank You, Lord Jesus. Amen, so be it by faith, and by faith, it is so in Jesus' name. Prayer was written by Encourager Linda Flagg, M.A., Board Certified Professional Christian Life Coach.

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[Leera]

I prayed for this in Jesus Name. Amen.

 

[Gratefulness1]

Father God I ask in Yeshua's Blessed Name for favor for your child in this situation.

 

[usha rani]

I prayed for this in Jesus Name. Amen.

 

[Tan Popatas]

I prayed for this in Jesus Name. Amen.

 

[hostadmin]

Thank you for giving us the privilege to pray on your behalf. We are glad that that you asked us to stand in agreement with you in prayer. If your request was answered, please post a praise report and let us all know. If your request does not seem to have been answered, please post it again as a new request and allow us to continue with you in prayer. We all hope that our prayers are answered in the way that we want. Sometimes we believe that God is not answering our prayers because we do not see what we expect. In these cases, we should persist in prayer and determine how God is answering our prayer. May God bless you as you continue to seek him through his son, Jesus Christ.

 

[Tharorrama]

I read this while driving, and i could visualize this as almost the same thing happened to me. He last saw baby who is now a year and 8 months when she had just turned a year. Sometimes he is responsive on email, sometimes he is not. however this is not bothering me much anymore, for i have devoted my life to prayer, my work and my Kids. and i believe in God's time the answers you are looking for will be revealed and all the confusion will be cleared. Keep up the positive attitude. God is faithful. and i ask in the name of our Lord Jesus Christ that there be peace in your life and that the desires of your heart be fulfilled according to his will and plans for your life. Amen.