Fwyryall
Disciple of Prayer
It has been 2 months since the both of us found out that we committed adultery, i forgave him and fell more in love with him, he on the other hand has spoken the ugliest words to me calling me the dirtiest names asking me to kill myself 2 months ago, since that time and e being consistent in prayer i see change in the house, calmness and he started talking to me again and he started eating from my hand again, now what is happening these days is that he will talk here and there and we are still intimate but he treats me like I'm just some person in the house and i can't ask him questions or say anything about how i feel or how he makes me feel as a wife then he wanna tell me that nothing has changed and that he still wants a divorce, he took away my allowance as he was the one never wanting me to work for 13 years, now he tells me that i have to contribute towards things in the house and towards things that the kids need. He has a lot of pride and a very big ego, he earns very good money at his job but he doesn't care if i have anything, back home i have a 75 year old dad and a brother who is mentally disabled due to his epilepsy and i am the only one who can help where help is needed for them, i feel my husband is punishing me and i was the only one from the beginning of this that was tormented by him and his actions and his word he gave me as his wife, i pray that my husband will have affection for me, love, respect, emotion towards me as his wife, that he will take the label that he has put on me off and that when he looks at me he will see the good wife i always were i just made a mistake, i told him that i have been begging him in the past to be a husband and to stop putting me second, his friend, his job and his phone always came before me, i always asked him to go out with me and he always declined, but when his friend come he will always go and s pend time with them leaving me wit the kids, im not justifying what i did, i feel horrible about it and i took it to my King, i repented about everything i did in my marriage even just things in did in my past that i am not proud of, i have ever since build a personal relationship with god and pray many times per day, most of my prayers is just for my husband that i love dearly, looking at him hurts because he rejects me most of the time, the lady i thought was a friend to me he id now visiting behind my back but i am not sure if there is anything romantic going on, as she was the one telling him about. this very. thing that created this chaos in our home, now they dont know that i have figured it out that she was the one telling him things and then she will come to me and tell me things about him just for me to figure out that she wants us to be fighting all the time telling us things about each other and planting things in our heads to create an argument, i want him to stop reporting things to her that is happening in our home, stop all communication between them in Jesus name and that he will stop buying things for her. I ask please that everything outside of our marriage that he allows in to be broken in the Mighty name of Jesus our Lord and Saviour who died on the cross for our sins. I am in constant prayer for our marriage and i trust that God will bring full restoration for the both of us in our marriage, the Bible say that "what God has put together, let no man separate" in Jesus mighty name, i feel like while i am here praying for my marriage every day, he allows that woman to pray against our marriage because all she can talk about to me is when i get divorced and that i wont be broke because he will have to give me half of everything that he owns, she told me that i can pray till i get blue in the face that his feelings for me wont change, she sounds like she already sees me out of my husband's life. please pray for my marriage, in Jesus mighty name, le my husband love me as the Bible says, " a husband should love his wife like Christ loves the church" i need that woman to be removed from our lives and our memories in Jesus name Amen