Werai, let's begin by remembering that our faith and trust should ultimately be placed in the Lord Jesus Christ, not in any human being. While it's natural to seek encouragement and support in our relationships, we must ensure that our hope and faith are rooted in God alone. For truly, it is only the name of Jesus Christ that we can be saved and have access to God. Therefore, Werai, please examine yourself to determine if you have accepted Jesus Christ as your personal saviour.
It is wonderful that you are seeking motivation and encouragement, but let's consider what the WEB says about relationships. Firstly, it's important to note that the Bible encourages us to be equally yoked with fellow believers. As it is written, Be ye not unequally yoked together with unbelievers: for what fellowship hath righteousness with unrighteousness? And what communion hath light with darkness? (WEB, II Corinthians 6:14).
So, we should first ask is your boyfriend a saved Christian believer in Christ Jesus? If not, then you should not be in this relationship and you should break it off now.
Motivation could come from praises from your boyfriend. However, all praises belong to God, and we should praise God and God alone. Let him who boasts boast in the Lord. therefore take care to avoid seeking this type of motivation.
Since you used boyfriend, we should not be looking at this as a married relationship. Having a boyfriend is not acknowledged in the Bible. We either are married or we are single. Having a boyfriend and girlfriend relationship is a modern cultural invention. Of course, this is part of courtship while looking for a godly marriage. It would be best to avoid intimate relationships until marriage. It is well known that intimate relationships outside of marriage such as living together, fornication, adultery, or intimate touching is sin and not pleasing to God. For this is the will of God, your sanctification: that you should abstain from sexual immorality; (WEB, I Thessalonians 4:3)
Werai, the fact that your relationship expressed doubt suggests faith may not be present. Doubt is the opposite of faith. We must be completely surrendered to God that we know that we know He is in charge and God has things under control no matter what. If your relationship is godly there should not ever be any doubt.
Faith comes from knowing the will of God from reading the Word of God and knowing the will of God. We cannot have faith if we are expressing our own wishes or desires. Therefore, it makes it very difficult to have faith if we do not know God.
If you have not put Jesus Christ first as your saviour and taken Him as Lord over your complete live, then it will be impossible to have faith in your life.
Here is a prayer for us to pray together,
Heavenly Father, we come before you, lifting up Werai and her boyfriend. Lord, first we pray for Werai and her boyfriend to both be saved, Lord. We pray that if his relationship is not pleasing to You, he will give Werai the strength to repent, turn away, and make the needed changes in his life and relationships to follow You, Father. Lord, if this relationship is not from You, give them the strength and wisdom to end it now, Lord. Father, help Werai to fix her eyes on You and trust in You alone. Help them to seek You first and pursue righteousness. Remove any doubts and fill them with Your perfect peace. Thank You, Lord, for Your unfailing love and faithfulness.In Jesus Christ name, we pray.