Anonymous
Beloved of All
Dear Lord,
I come before you again today with a very confused heart. I am still in love with my baby daddy and I don’t want him to go away this time around. But I have a boyfriend and he already has a girlfriend.
I know this sounds very selfish but Lord, why am I still in love with him? Why do I still want to be with him? What is this feeling that I am craving for? I don’t understand.
I want to know why but I am so confused. I cannot see which direction to go. I have never been in a relationship with him and I know that even if I am special to him, its not enough for him to risk his relationship and be with me. He never said that he loves me and he never was there when I needed him.
But he keeps coming back and whenever I ask him why, he disappears. Lord, please make things clearer for us this time. Please show me if its time to say goodbye already for good because my feelings tell me otherwise. I still feel the need to be close to him. I am drawn to his charm and I want more time with him.
Lord, please please show me the way. Please. We both believe we are soulmates but we can’t be together in this lifetime and even if we have a kid, its not enough to be together.
Lord, I pray that in another life, I can finally be with him. I really wanna know what it feels like. I want a life with him but all of these are just my personal desires. I don’t know if in another lifetime, he would feel the same way.
But Lord, if ever things get rough and its time to say goodbye for good, I pray that I am able to accept the reality that I am never going to be with him. I love my boyfriend but maybe a part of me loves my baby daddy more.
I pray that he would show me his feelings. I pray that he would finally tell me the answers that I need to hear. Maybe its not what I want but at least I know the truth. Because there is this inner voice in my head that keeps telling me its not over yet.
Amen.
I come before you again today with a very confused heart. I am still in love with my baby daddy and I don’t want him to go away this time around. But I have a boyfriend and he already has a girlfriend.
I know this sounds very selfish but Lord, why am I still in love with him? Why do I still want to be with him? What is this feeling that I am craving for? I don’t understand.
I want to know why but I am so confused. I cannot see which direction to go. I have never been in a relationship with him and I know that even if I am special to him, its not enough for him to risk his relationship and be with me. He never said that he loves me and he never was there when I needed him.
But he keeps coming back and whenever I ask him why, he disappears. Lord, please make things clearer for us this time. Please show me if its time to say goodbye already for good because my feelings tell me otherwise. I still feel the need to be close to him. I am drawn to his charm and I want more time with him.
Lord, please please show me the way. Please. We both believe we are soulmates but we can’t be together in this lifetime and even if we have a kid, its not enough to be together.
Lord, I pray that in another life, I can finally be with him. I really wanna know what it feels like. I want a life with him but all of these are just my personal desires. I don’t know if in another lifetime, he would feel the same way.
But Lord, if ever things get rough and its time to say goodbye for good, I pray that I am able to accept the reality that I am never going to be with him. I love my boyfriend but maybe a part of me loves my baby daddy more.
I pray that he would show me his feelings. I pray that he would finally tell me the answers that I need to hear. Maybe its not what I want but at least I know the truth. Because there is this inner voice in my head that keeps telling me its not over yet.
Amen.