Anonymous
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It is currently 1:10 am April 21st, I have a lot on my mine and have a request....
I am a 22 male I broke up with my girlfriend sometime back and people say "it gets easier with time", "dude get over her already", "you'll find someone better", but I can't anymore I miss her so so much I'm blocked on everything I can't talk to her... she moved on and I'm still not letting go. I know you're not supposed to make deals with god or ask for something he took away from you but I have tears in my eyes I tried so so hard to get over her I'm young I know but this girl she might've been the one. I started talking to other girls and tried dating apps but It's not the same the connection I had with her was something special and I try so hard to forget her and to not look back and to learn from my past but i'm out of strength today was the day that broke me. I can't stop crying and I want her reassurance everyone I talk to says I'm obsessed, I'm pathetic, it's sad that I care this much about her when she doesn't feel the same way. I do not know what to do anymore when I talk to people they just judge me and make me feel like my feelings shouldn't be valid. before I met her I was depressed i skipped college classes got myself on academic suspension, and I cried that night the night before valentines day I got on my knees and I begged alone in my dorm I asked god please send me someone anyone I dont want to be alone. the day went on nothing till around 11 pm I remember it so well we talked all night and I got her number happiest day of my life we rushed the relationship i'll admit that but she was everything I wanted not only as a girlfriend but my best friend. it wasn't always smooth but we got through it and idk if it was to hurt me or whatever the reason, march 4th, the last time we talked she told me that she's gonna find someone better that she's over it that our relationship wasn't real I gave 8 months of my life to her and for her to tell me that... and I still just want to talk to her I still miss her she left a void that hasn't been filled and idk i've cried every day this week before I go to sleep and my mind is so foggy. I know im not the most holy of people I know im a sinner. I'm sorry if I rambled on for to long I just want you to pray for me. thank you all
I am a 22 male I broke up with my girlfriend sometime back and people say "it gets easier with time", "dude get over her already", "you'll find someone better", but I can't anymore I miss her so so much I'm blocked on everything I can't talk to her... she moved on and I'm still not letting go. I know you're not supposed to make deals with god or ask for something he took away from you but I have tears in my eyes I tried so so hard to get over her I'm young I know but this girl she might've been the one. I started talking to other girls and tried dating apps but It's not the same the connection I had with her was something special and I try so hard to forget her and to not look back and to learn from my past but i'm out of strength today was the day that broke me. I can't stop crying and I want her reassurance everyone I talk to says I'm obsessed, I'm pathetic, it's sad that I care this much about her when she doesn't feel the same way. I do not know what to do anymore when I talk to people they just judge me and make me feel like my feelings shouldn't be valid. before I met her I was depressed i skipped college classes got myself on academic suspension, and I cried that night the night before valentines day I got on my knees and I begged alone in my dorm I asked god please send me someone anyone I dont want to be alone. the day went on nothing till around 11 pm I remember it so well we talked all night and I got her number happiest day of my life we rushed the relationship i'll admit that but she was everything I wanted not only as a girlfriend but my best friend. it wasn't always smooth but we got through it and idk if it was to hurt me or whatever the reason, march 4th, the last time we talked she told me that she's gonna find someone better that she's over it that our relationship wasn't real I gave 8 months of my life to her and for her to tell me that... and I still just want to talk to her I still miss her she left a void that hasn't been filled and idk i've cried every day this week before I go to sleep and my mind is so foggy. I know im not the most holy of people I know im a sinner. I'm sorry if I rambled on for to long I just want you to pray for me. thank you all