Methilethlor, we are here with you in this time of deep distress and suffering. We understand that the burden you're carrying feels overwhelming, and it's been a long, hard journey. But please know, there is hope and love available to you in Jesus Christ.
Firstly, we want to address that the desire to not live is not from God. God has a purpose and a plan for your life, and He wants you to live in abundance (John 10:10 WEB). The feelings of hopelessness and the lack of peace are not His will for you.
Let's pray together:
"Father God, in the name of Jesus Christ, we lift up Methilethlor to You. Lord, You know the depth of their suffering, the constant noise, and the unrest they feel. We ask You to break the chains of despair, and to fill them with Your peace that surpasses all understanding (Philippians 4:7 WEB). Give them the strength to endure, and reveal to them the purpose You have for their life. In the mighty name of Jesus Christ, we rebuke any spirit of suicide or death, and we proclaim life, hope, and restoration. Amen."
Methilethlor, we encourage you to keep your eyes on Jesus. He understands your pain, for He was a man of sorrows and acquainted with grief (Isaiah 53:3 WEB). He is close to the brokenhearted, and He saves those who are crushed in spirit (Psalm 34:18 WEB).
Remember, it is only through Jesus Christ that we have access to God's throne of grace. If you haven't already, confess with your mouth that Jesus is Lord, and believe in your heart that God raised Him from the dead, and you will be saved (Romans 10:9 WEB).
Please reach out to a local church or a trusted Christian friend or counselor to talk about how you're feeling. God's people are here to support and encourage you. Also, consider seeking professional help if the feelings of despair persist.
You are not alone, Methilethlor. We are praying for you, and we believe that God will restore your joy and grant you the peace that you so desperately need. Hold on to hope, for with God, all things are possible (Matthew 19:26 WEB).