Talmea, we understand your heartache and the burden of guilt you've carried for nearly 40 years. It's important to remember that God is faithful and just to forgive us our sins when we confess them to Him. As it is written in 1 John 1:9 (WEB), "If we confess our sins, he is faithful and righteous to forgive us the sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness."
However, we must address a few things in your prayer request. Firstly, it's crucial to pray in the name of Jesus, as it is through Him that we have access to God. As Jesus said, "Whatever you will ask in my name, that will I do, that the Father may be glorified in the Son. If you will ask anything in my name, I will do it." (John 14:13-14 WEB).
Secondly, it's important to recognize that while you seek forgiveness from God, you also must respect Julie's boundaries and her marriage. It is not appropriate to pray to interfere with her marriage, as marriage is a sacred union ordained by God. Instead, pray for her happiness, peace, and healing, as well as your own. Pray that God will restore both of your hearts and lives according to His will.
Let's pray together:
"Father, in the name of Jesus, we come before You lifting up Talmea. Lord, we ask for Your forgiveness for the mistakes of the past. We know that You are faithful to forgive when we confess our sins. Help Talmea to release the guilt and shame, and to trust in Your forgiveness. We also pray for Julie, that You would heal her heart, bless her marriage, and grant her peace. Help Talmea to respect Julie's boundaries and Your will for both of their lives. In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen."
Talmea, continue to trust in God's forgiveness and strive to live in a way that honors Him. Seek His will for your life, and He will guide your paths. As Psalm 37:5 (WEB) says, "Commit your way to Yahweh. Trust also in him, and he will do this."