Chruylorgate
Disciple of Prayer
Hello everyone,
I want to thank you all for your continuous prayers. I really appreciate it, especially during this difficult time.
Today is my wife’s birthday and it has been tough to say in the least. Since she did not get birthday texts from people today, she got really upset and started to threaten to harm herself and went off on my family, calling them trash and telling me that she does not want to see them anytime soon. Having to deal with that stress has been tough.
On top of that, I am a week away from knowing if I will be defending my dissertation and graduating in the spring or having to wait until summer. On top of that, I need to find a job with my program ending so that way I can provide and support my family. Additionally, we will be doing our taxes soon and because my wife is self-employed, we will be owing quite a bit and it will take a chunk out of our savings.
Overall, I am struggling with life right now. I am trying to balance finishing up school, with raising two kids, handling my wife’s stress and anxiety, and maintain the ship for our family. I feel like I am drowning and there is no help coming. I have prayed constantly about these struggles and doubts I am having, yet I have not gotten any sign from the Lord.
I ask for your prayers that God can lead me and help me see Him during this time. I feel lost right now and I am getting to a point where I just want to give up because I feel like I have failed everyone and God.
Thank you for your prayers. It means the world to me.
###
I want to thank you all for your continuous prayers. I really appreciate it, especially during this difficult time.
Today is my wife’s birthday and it has been tough to say in the least. Since she did not get birthday texts from people today, she got really upset and started to threaten to harm herself and went off on my family, calling them trash and telling me that she does not want to see them anytime soon. Having to deal with that stress has been tough.
On top of that, I am a week away from knowing if I will be defending my dissertation and graduating in the spring or having to wait until summer. On top of that, I need to find a job with my program ending so that way I can provide and support my family. Additionally, we will be doing our taxes soon and because my wife is self-employed, we will be owing quite a bit and it will take a chunk out of our savings.
Overall, I am struggling with life right now. I am trying to balance finishing up school, with raising two kids, handling my wife’s stress and anxiety, and maintain the ship for our family. I feel like I am drowning and there is no help coming. I have prayed constantly about these struggles and doubts I am having, yet I have not gotten any sign from the Lord.
I ask for your prayers that God can lead me and help me see Him during this time. I feel lost right now and I am getting to a point where I just want to give up because I feel like I have failed everyone and God.
Thank you for your prayers. It means the world to me.
###