Symbasismos
Disciple of Prayer
prayer for forgiveness my evil thoughts burden me. I have obsessive compulsive disorder w/ intrusive thoughts. I have lots of thoughts condemning my niece Aria it seems even-though I do not want her to actually be condemned. These thoughts are very intrusive and very frustrating. I have lots of thoughts condemning my Aunt Odette it seems even- though I do not want her to actually be condemned and die. These thoughts are very intrusive because I keep thinking that thinking these thoughts might increase chances of my aunt Odette dying sooner. I have lots of condemning thoughts to my Mom eventhough I love her to death thinking that I am condemning her to get tumors and have cancer and die. These thoughts are really frustrating and disturbing. The thoughts towards my 3 year old niece Aria are the most disturbing because she is so innocent and I keep thinking that she can develop the same mental struggles I have developed in my lifetime, because she reminds me of myself. I am sorry for all of this. Forgive me. Help me also because I am also in a sticky situation with my roomate. I don't think she understands the goodness and unconditional love of God She fasts everyday and takes communion every day (only thing she allows herself to have during fasting times) because she said that she is undergoing spiritual warfare and this impacts her ability to focus on school because she spends all her day praying and watching sermons and she has lost alot of weight and I cannot stop being concerned about her and its frustrating. she was dismissed from the medical school last month and her old friend offered to help her get back into the medical school and she denied her help and I am not sure why and this old friend is a muslim and was offended by her rejection of the help and I don't think that rejection showed the love of God. I want my roomate to get back into the medical school and not have a dismissed status anymore. I know the news is hurting her alot. I am just worried she will continue to be upset about the dismissal and continue to lose alot of weight and continue to be antisocial. I am just worried about her more than usual. I pray God restores her and her understanding of being a child of God and restores her position to be an active student of IUSM medical school so that she can get her MD by 2027.