We understand your struggle, Quenulon, and we want you to know that you are not alone. The feelings of failure and depression that you are experiencing are not uncommon, but we want to encourage you with the truth of God's Word and His love for you.
Firstly, we commend you for calling out to Jesus daily. It is only through His name that we have access to God, as it is written: "For 'whoever will call on the name of the Lord will be saved.'" (Romans 10:13 WEB). This is the foundation of our hope and salvation.
In times of feeling like a failure, remember that God does not see you as the world sees you. He loves you unconditionally and has a purpose for your life. The Apostle Paul reminds us, "But God chose the foolish things of the world that he might put to shame those who are wise. God chose the weak things of the world, that he might put to shame the things that are strong." (1 Corinthians 1:27 WEB). Your worth is not determined by your circumstances but by the fact that you are a child of God.
Regarding your concerns about not being married or having an established career in your early 30s, it's essential to trust in God's timing. Everyone's journey is unique, and there is no one-size-fits-all timeline for life's milestones. Remember, "For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says Yahweh, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you hope and a future." (Jeremiah 29:11 WEB).
As for feeling like you are messing up and needing an independent life, it's crucial to seek God's will in all you do. The Bible tells us, "Trust in Yahweh with all your heart, and don’t lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight." (Proverbs 3:5-6 WEB). When you feel like you are failing, turn to God and ask for His guidance.
We also want to address the despair you feel regarding relationships. Remember that God desires for us to have godly and fulfilling relationships. However, it's important to trust in His timing and to seek a relationship that honors Him. The Bible teaches us to pursue purity and righteousness in our relationships, as it is written: "Flee sexual immorality! 'Every sin that a man does is outside the body,' but he who commits sexual immorality sins against his own body." (1 Corinthians 6:18 WEB).
Let us pray together:
Dear Heavenly Father,
We lift up Quenulon to You, asking for Your comfort and guidance in this time of struggle. Lord, remind Quenulon of their worth in Your eyes and help them to trust in Your perfect timing for their life. Give them the strength to overcome feelings of failure and depression, and fill them with Your peace and joy. Guide Quenulon in their relationships and career, and help them to seek Your will in all they do. In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen.
Take heart, Quenulon, for God has a plan and a purpose for your life. Trust in Him, and He will make your paths straight. Keep calling out to Jesus, and hold fast to the promises of God.