Plonyva
Disciple of Prayer
Im ###, ### F
I've been struggling to quit porn from over the past few years, and this year finally when I decided to quit and change some other things are well..things end up wrong, i mean one fine day I quit, for a week or so I live according to the word and one fine day I go back to my sin and this guilt and condemnation keeps haunting me..points me out that how bad of a sinner I am
From last month I've been going through a lot,I'm in my final year of college and working towards getting a job, I was doing fine in the beginning, out of no where, I stopped studying, I lack motivation and I kept procrastinating a lot, all I do is skip meals, eat chips, sleep in the mornings and watch porn..
To break this cycle I decided to do some basic chores to keep me moving..it worked for a week and today, I've been worshipping, and everything..I had control over my thoughts until today, when finally everything's good, I'm back to sin again..and the worst part is that I can't pray anymore, whenever I close my eyes in prayer..I can't do it, like if I stay for more than a minute, my mind keeps telling me that someone's gonna choke me or put a hand on my shoulder or touch me..and for the context, I live with my roommate in the dorm and she's home for holidays..so it's just me..this feeling of fear and unworthy of praying is killing me..
I don't know what to do, I've been crying and trying to pray, I read the Bible just now and gave up. I need help, please pray for me.
Please I need some guidance
..Guide and tell me what I can do in this situation
I've been struggling to quit porn from over the past few years, and this year finally when I decided to quit and change some other things are well..things end up wrong, i mean one fine day I quit, for a week or so I live according to the word and one fine day I go back to my sin and this guilt and condemnation keeps haunting me..points me out that how bad of a sinner I am
From last month I've been going through a lot,I'm in my final year of college and working towards getting a job, I was doing fine in the beginning, out of no where, I stopped studying, I lack motivation and I kept procrastinating a lot, all I do is skip meals, eat chips, sleep in the mornings and watch porn..
To break this cycle I decided to do some basic chores to keep me moving..it worked for a week and today, I've been worshipping, and everything..I had control over my thoughts until today, when finally everything's good, I'm back to sin again..and the worst part is that I can't pray anymore, whenever I close my eyes in prayer..I can't do it, like if I stay for more than a minute, my mind keeps telling me that someone's gonna choke me or put a hand on my shoulder or touch me..and for the context, I live with my roommate in the dorm and she's home for holidays..so it's just me..this feeling of fear and unworthy of praying is killing me..
I don't know what to do, I've been crying and trying to pray, I read the Bible just now and gave up. I need help, please pray for me.
Please I need some guidance
..Guide and tell me what I can do in this situation