Saballiffe
Prayer Partner
I want to start off with a praise report: I have a job and a place to live. God saved me from being unemployed and evicted. Though I have had many obstacles, one of the coworkers in my office was removed, which is a blessing when it comes to my mental space. And I thank God for all he has done, and what I know he will do for me in the future, no matter what I currently feel in the moment.
I am asking for prayer; many things are hitting me at once, and I know He can solve all my problems and care about me. Sometimes, I feel shame about laying all my problems at His feet. Though I often express my gratitude and thanks, I feel like I am constantly having issues and asking for deliverance. Not that I don't try on my own to resolve things because I do, but it's so tiring. I know I'm amid burnout, just tryin' to push through because that's all I know how to do.
I have a court case in December for a creditor suing me for a debt I cannot afford; I reached out to local legal aid, and they are counting what I am set to make at this job instead of what I have made so far. Especially when I expressed that I had only been at this job for a few months. I cannot afford to cover lawyers' fees alone, let alone that and whatever settlement the creditors will agree to.
I am already making large payments to another creditor since I agreed in good faith that I would do so when I start a job. I had/have no intention of avoiding payment with the one suing; not only are they suing me for an exorbitant amount, but the debt should have been canceled when I filled out the forms due to my circumstances, but it was mysteriously rejected. I am trying my best and fighting so hard to become stable.
I have a family member who is ill and trying to pressure me into being at their beck and call. And I seem to be the only person who realizes they aren't being completely forthcoming with the information they share. Especially since they always taught me omission is a lie, and I am trying not to have a visceral reaction to the fact they are trying to manipulate me.
My sleep and digestion are being affected by my stress, and I am starting to grind my teeth in my sleep, causing a toothache. Everything seems to be compounding while I try to stay focused and anchor myself. I know after all I've been through, I wouldn't have made It through that for no reason. I am trying to see the positive and bright things in my day.
At my job, I am constantly being told I am being held to different standards, but nothing is written down, and expectations are not expressed. They wait until I create something to then edit and shoot it down. As soon as I finish speaking, those in charge respond in a way that shows they don't listen. It is almost made to seem like I do not take the initiative or have followed through, yet I am always stuck with unique situations no one else has ever had to deal with, and I find a solution. I know I deserve better and that this will continue to take a mental toll on me, but with the current job climate, I am afraid to make any changes. I also know that certifications and education will help with how competitive it is, but I already have an issue with funds.
At this point, I don't quite know what to ask for prayer on peace of mind, direction, deliverance, peace, grace and energy. I'm not sure. I know I need a change; all of this is too heavy, and I've never felt lonelier. I know with my past of seasonal depression and the holidays coming up where, yet again, for another year, I will be alone. I need some brightness to shine through before I lose myself in darkness.
I am asking for prayer; many things are hitting me at once, and I know He can solve all my problems and care about me. Sometimes, I feel shame about laying all my problems at His feet. Though I often express my gratitude and thanks, I feel like I am constantly having issues and asking for deliverance. Not that I don't try on my own to resolve things because I do, but it's so tiring. I know I'm amid burnout, just tryin' to push through because that's all I know how to do.
I have a court case in December for a creditor suing me for a debt I cannot afford; I reached out to local legal aid, and they are counting what I am set to make at this job instead of what I have made so far. Especially when I expressed that I had only been at this job for a few months. I cannot afford to cover lawyers' fees alone, let alone that and whatever settlement the creditors will agree to.
I am already making large payments to another creditor since I agreed in good faith that I would do so when I start a job. I had/have no intention of avoiding payment with the one suing; not only are they suing me for an exorbitant amount, but the debt should have been canceled when I filled out the forms due to my circumstances, but it was mysteriously rejected. I am trying my best and fighting so hard to become stable.
I have a family member who is ill and trying to pressure me into being at their beck and call. And I seem to be the only person who realizes they aren't being completely forthcoming with the information they share. Especially since they always taught me omission is a lie, and I am trying not to have a visceral reaction to the fact they are trying to manipulate me.
My sleep and digestion are being affected by my stress, and I am starting to grind my teeth in my sleep, causing a toothache. Everything seems to be compounding while I try to stay focused and anchor myself. I know after all I've been through, I wouldn't have made It through that for no reason. I am trying to see the positive and bright things in my day.
At my job, I am constantly being told I am being held to different standards, but nothing is written down, and expectations are not expressed. They wait until I create something to then edit and shoot it down. As soon as I finish speaking, those in charge respond in a way that shows they don't listen. It is almost made to seem like I do not take the initiative or have followed through, yet I am always stuck with unique situations no one else has ever had to deal with, and I find a solution. I know I deserve better and that this will continue to take a mental toll on me, but with the current job climate, I am afraid to make any changes. I also know that certifications and education will help with how competitive it is, but I already have an issue with funds.
At this point, I don't quite know what to ask for prayer on peace of mind, direction, deliverance, peace, grace and energy. I'm not sure. I know I need a change; all of this is too heavy, and I've never felt lonelier. I know with my past of seasonal depression and the holidays coming up where, yet again, for another year, I will be alone. I need some brightness to shine through before I lose myself in darkness.