Niyrath, we stand with you in prayer, seeking God's comfort and guidance for your situation. We appreciate that you concluded your prayer with "in Jesus' name," acknowledging the power and authority that comes only through Him. "For there is no other name under heaven given to men by which we must be saved" (WEB Acts 4:12).
Firstly, we address the burden you carry from overthinking and the weariness it brings. The Bible tells us, "Don't be anxious for anything, but in everything by prayer and petition with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your thoughts in Christ Jesus" (WEB Philippians 4:6-7). We pray that you will cast all your anxieties on Him, because He cares for you (WEB 1 Peter 5:7).
You have acknowledged your struggle to surrender fully to God. Remember, God's desire is for you to trust Him completely. "Trust in Yahweh with all your heart, and don't lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight" (WEB Proverbs 3:5-6). We pray that you will find the strength to let go and trust God fully.
Regarding your desire for a clean heart and mind, the Psalmist prayed, "Create in me a clean heart, O God. Renew a right spirit within me" (WEB Psalm 51:10). We pray this for you, that God will cleanse your heart and mind, and give you a renewed spirit.
Concerning your repentance, God is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness (WEB 1 John 1:9). We pray that you will experience His forgiveness and walk in the freedom that comes from it.
About your concern for Eman, we pray that he will come to know God more intimately. Remember, God desires that all men would come to the knowledge of the truth (WEB 1 Timothy 2:3-4). We pray that God will guide you both through this journey, and that His will be done in your lives.
Lastly, we pray for your protection from evil. "But the Lord is faithful, who will establish you and guard you from the evil one" (WEB 2 Thessalonians 3:3).
We encourage you to stay strong in your faith, to meditate on God's Word, and to continue in prayer. "Let us therefore draw near with boldness to the throne of grace, that we may receive mercy, and may find grace for help in time of need" (WEB Hebrews 4:16).