Kittybuggy
Disciple of Prayer
Yesterday I did something unexpectedly stupid.. I send an apology email to the person who owns RP Hub Server Advertising and instead of accepting it and being a little bit nice, he sounded really upset and rude about it. I really messed up this time more that when I spammed Canadian. I wish there was a way to get Happy to see what I've done and how sorry I am about it. I should have never send that email otherwise I won't be typing all of this.
According to his email, he basically said that if I email or respond back to him then he'll call the police on me because I "tracked" and "stalked" his personal email address which I did not even know how to do.
I simply found it because he shared a google doc to anyone who has the link to the Google doc and I accidentally send a edit request to him and I felt so bad I wanted to apologize. My heart feels heavyweight and I don't know what to do.
I'm so depressed and deeply hurt by everything ever since Rome's ban. Why can't I just go back in time just to simply avoid all of this? Getting a second chance to redo everything from the day before I've been ban from Rome's server is absolutely perfect. No matter how much I've prayed or watched subliminal videos and trying to stay positive, nothing works for me. I never gotten any good luck anymore even if I was behaving well. But right now I feel stuck and can't go on because everything I do is always gonna end up badly or even worse.
Ugh I can't even type properly because of how shaken up I am. I just really wish there was a way for everyone to get along... Maybe in my dream but definitely not out here in the real world.
I'm not trying to cause any trouble and I tried so hard to make sure it didn't happen but guess I was wrong and now I'm just sad and heartbroken
I want to apologize to everyone who I came across thinking I've caused trouble telling them I'm sorry for everything I've done and I never meant to hurt anyone like this. I'm not perfect and I make a lot of the same mistakes over and over again but those mistakes are never meant to hurt anyone. I never meant to make the on purpose. Sometimes I do things without thinking and ended up with being misunderstanding causing my downfall and pain in my life and heart.
I tried moving on but I can't no matter how hard I tried. I regret everything I've done to cause myself to be ban and blocked on discord. I wish there was a way for them to realize it especially for Death, Happy, yourfriendsteven, Mane, Ever Rat, Thea, Miss Divvi, and Rome to unblock and talk to me about everything and listen to my side of the story as well as be unban from Crescent Hub(and be a Partner Manger again), RP Hub | Server Advertising, yourfriendsteven's servers(and be an admin and partner Manger again) , Thea's server, Ever Rat's server, etc. Either that or I want to go back in time to August 8th/9th 2023 to start completely over again.
I chose Death and Happy as the first two because they were the ones who ban me and kicked me. O Lord Jesus, I'm so lost and scared that I don't know how to deal with this ir even moving on. I pray for these people to have sincerity in their hearts and that knowing communication is the key to understanding misunderstandings. I pray for them to renew their hearts and realize what they've done.
Please don't do anything that'll punish them terribly and instead just forgive them for their sins and for what they've done to hurt and break me in Jesus's name, I pray, Amen
I just want to see something amazing happen and something so miraculous that it'll make me feel better. But every day I wake up, I see nothing out of the ordinary. All I see is pain and misery from what I've done.
Heavenly Father, if it's to make me a lot more better and to actually feel real happiness then I love for these discord people who ban/blocked me to unban and unblock me to forgive and talk to me but of course only out of luck a miracle can make something like that happen and at the time of writing this, I see no point in believing in a miracle that much anymore because every time I tried and do, nothing happens or make it to actually travel back in time to August 8th 2023 and start over completely from there. I'll do anything to get them to forgive me or to go back in time .
Nobody and I mean nobody not even a therapy can help me.
According to his email, he basically said that if I email or respond back to him then he'll call the police on me because I "tracked" and "stalked" his personal email address which I did not even know how to do.
I simply found it because he shared a google doc to anyone who has the link to the Google doc and I accidentally send a edit request to him and I felt so bad I wanted to apologize. My heart feels heavyweight and I don't know what to do.
I'm so depressed and deeply hurt by everything ever since Rome's ban. Why can't I just go back in time just to simply avoid all of this? Getting a second chance to redo everything from the day before I've been ban from Rome's server is absolutely perfect. No matter how much I've prayed or watched subliminal videos and trying to stay positive, nothing works for me. I never gotten any good luck anymore even if I was behaving well. But right now I feel stuck and can't go on because everything I do is always gonna end up badly or even worse.
Ugh I can't even type properly because of how shaken up I am. I just really wish there was a way for everyone to get along... Maybe in my dream but definitely not out here in the real world.
I'm not trying to cause any trouble and I tried so hard to make sure it didn't happen but guess I was wrong and now I'm just sad and heartbroken
I want to apologize to everyone who I came across thinking I've caused trouble telling them I'm sorry for everything I've done and I never meant to hurt anyone like this. I'm not perfect and I make a lot of the same mistakes over and over again but those mistakes are never meant to hurt anyone. I never meant to make the on purpose. Sometimes I do things without thinking and ended up with being misunderstanding causing my downfall and pain in my life and heart.
I tried moving on but I can't no matter how hard I tried. I regret everything I've done to cause myself to be ban and blocked on discord. I wish there was a way for them to realize it especially for Death, Happy, yourfriendsteven, Mane, Ever Rat, Thea, Miss Divvi, and Rome to unblock and talk to me about everything and listen to my side of the story as well as be unban from Crescent Hub(and be a Partner Manger again), RP Hub | Server Advertising, yourfriendsteven's servers(and be an admin and partner Manger again) , Thea's server, Ever Rat's server, etc. Either that or I want to go back in time to August 8th/9th 2023 to start completely over again.
I chose Death and Happy as the first two because they were the ones who ban me and kicked me. O Lord Jesus, I'm so lost and scared that I don't know how to deal with this ir even moving on. I pray for these people to have sincerity in their hearts and that knowing communication is the key to understanding misunderstandings. I pray for them to renew their hearts and realize what they've done.
Please don't do anything that'll punish them terribly and instead just forgive them for their sins and for what they've done to hurt and break me in Jesus's name, I pray, Amen
I just want to see something amazing happen and something so miraculous that it'll make me feel better. But every day I wake up, I see nothing out of the ordinary. All I see is pain and misery from what I've done.
Heavenly Father, if it's to make me a lot more better and to actually feel real happiness then I love for these discord people who ban/blocked me to unban and unblock me to forgive and talk to me but of course only out of luck a miracle can make something like that happen and at the time of writing this, I see no point in believing in a miracle that much anymore because every time I tried and do, nothing happens or make it to actually travel back in time to August 8th 2023 and start over completely from there. I'll do anything to get them to forgive me or to go back in time .
Nobody and I mean nobody not even a therapy can help me.
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