Kinnald
Disciple of Prayer
Dear Lord,
I ask that you give me strength and guidance over a job opportunity. I have been out of work for a month or so awaiting a dream job position I am in the process of getting. I have yet to hear from the HR dept. I suffer from major anxiety and my head has told me that there is reasons why I have yet to hear from them,
my head has been telling me that a prior employer may have ruined my chance, or that the alternate recruiter misinterpreted my energy and has changed their mind. Ever bad sitution has entered and been residing in my mind. Thoughts not from God surface all the time. Like I am not worthy, or I have done others wrong, why would God give me this great opportunity. But I know Lord that you love me and your will will be done. I wish I wouldnt of told my parents and fiance about getting this job as now I sit here in anguish waiting for the follow up that I was supposed to hear from on Monday. Its wednesday. I sent a email and Lord I pray that it doesnt get interepreted into rushing the process or being entitled or pushy. I just am so eager, my intentions are good. I want to do all in Gods name and every opportunity I get I sing praises about what God has done in my life. I used to weigh 80 lbs over weight, I was a severe alcoholic and bulimic for many years. I have since been given the strength to quit 4 years ago. I did many wrongs in my life and these past four years Ive tried my best to turn my life around. God put a amazing man in my life. I want to bear his children and marry him under God. I feel sometimes I am a financial burden on him. I pray that I get a email today regarding this position. Whether it be to confirm the offer or to tell me the position has been filled. My heart has so much anxiety. I am thankful God provided me with another opportunity so in case I dont get the really good job I still have a job and for that I am very thankful. I pray that I never hurt Travis, as he is the man of my dreams and the man who saved my soul when it was exteremely broken. I pray that I know boundaries and never hurt him in any way as I believe I have before and want to always do better. I sometimes feel broken and I need to remind myself to not vent to others about our relationship and to love and honor him and to discuss our issues with him, a therapist or the Lord. I want to be this mans life partner. Sometimes I feel I am undeserving of good things but I know thats what Satan says. I know God says I am loved, I am forgiven , I am Safe. Lord I pray to be a good wife to this man and I pray I get the job you want me to have God. Amen.
I ask that you give me strength and guidance over a job opportunity. I have been out of work for a month or so awaiting a dream job position I am in the process of getting. I have yet to hear from the HR dept. I suffer from major anxiety and my head has told me that there is reasons why I have yet to hear from them,
my head has been telling me that a prior employer may have ruined my chance, or that the alternate recruiter misinterpreted my energy and has changed their mind. Ever bad sitution has entered and been residing in my mind. Thoughts not from God surface all the time. Like I am not worthy, or I have done others wrong, why would God give me this great opportunity. But I know Lord that you love me and your will will be done. I wish I wouldnt of told my parents and fiance about getting this job as now I sit here in anguish waiting for the follow up that I was supposed to hear from on Monday. Its wednesday. I sent a email and Lord I pray that it doesnt get interepreted into rushing the process or being entitled or pushy. I just am so eager, my intentions are good. I want to do all in Gods name and every opportunity I get I sing praises about what God has done in my life. I used to weigh 80 lbs over weight, I was a severe alcoholic and bulimic for many years. I have since been given the strength to quit 4 years ago. I did many wrongs in my life and these past four years Ive tried my best to turn my life around. God put a amazing man in my life. I want to bear his children and marry him under God. I feel sometimes I am a financial burden on him. I pray that I get a email today regarding this position. Whether it be to confirm the offer or to tell me the position has been filled. My heart has so much anxiety. I am thankful God provided me with another opportunity so in case I dont get the really good job I still have a job and for that I am very thankful. I pray that I never hurt Travis, as he is the man of my dreams and the man who saved my soul when it was exteremely broken. I pray that I know boundaries and never hurt him in any way as I believe I have before and want to always do better. I sometimes feel broken and I need to remind myself to not vent to others about our relationship and to love and honor him and to discuss our issues with him, a therapist or the Lord. I want to be this mans life partner. Sometimes I feel I am undeserving of good things but I know thats what Satan says. I know God says I am loved, I am forgiven , I am Safe. Lord I pray to be a good wife to this man and I pray I get the job you want me to have God. Amen.