Glaskaorgor
Disciple of Prayer
Morning children of God
Since 2018 March I started masturbation, itried to pray for this and confessing but it goes away only for weeks or month and come back. I can't help my self I do it frequently but in only enjoyable when am doing it later on I regret my self. I alwz feel sad down and sinful.
I used to do it without watching porn only by imaginations but now iwatch porn alot. I do it in the presence of otherz when lights are off. I use any object that has penis shape such as roll on.
This has killed me spiritual am nomore a christian. Everything has changed about me my language, interest and my dressing am nolonger bahaving like a born again
I am dating 4guys currently 2of them are far from me we date online sharing naked pic and videos and masturbate on their naked pic. 1of the is not very far but we dnt meet we do phone calls 1of the is near my home i visit him but we never had sex bkz he respect me bkz he knows that am a born again believer, then he only touches me and kiss. Iwas just doing before but now i go myself there even without him calling me.
Pray for please guys iwant change this unhappy life, this nearby guy wants to marry me but i refused bkz he 1not a christian 2Unemployed 3they dnt like him at home. I developed feeling for him bt idnt need him.
This makes me lie to him that there are guys who want to marry me bkz am trying to discourage him. I send him false messages just to stop him. I put strangers on phone wallpaper so that he might think am having life going on. This made me became a liar.
Iwant to go back to God this life not nice life.
Ineed husband from God not from my lustful desires bkz we wont have happy life.
Since 2018 March I started masturbation, itried to pray for this and confessing but it goes away only for weeks or month and come back. I can't help my self I do it frequently but in only enjoyable when am doing it later on I regret my self. I alwz feel sad down and sinful.
I used to do it without watching porn only by imaginations but now iwatch porn alot. I do it in the presence of otherz when lights are off. I use any object that has penis shape such as roll on.
This has killed me spiritual am nomore a christian. Everything has changed about me my language, interest and my dressing am nolonger bahaving like a born again
I am dating 4guys currently 2of them are far from me we date online sharing naked pic and videos and masturbate on their naked pic. 1of the is not very far but we dnt meet we do phone calls 1of the is near my home i visit him but we never had sex bkz he respect me bkz he knows that am a born again believer, then he only touches me and kiss. Iwas just doing before but now i go myself there even without him calling me.
Pray for please guys iwant change this unhappy life, this nearby guy wants to marry me but i refused bkz he 1not a christian 2Unemployed 3they dnt like him at home. I developed feeling for him bt idnt need him.
This makes me lie to him that there are guys who want to marry me bkz am trying to discourage him. I send him false messages just to stop him. I put strangers on phone wallpaper so that he might think am having life going on. This made me became a liar.
Iwant to go back to God this life not nice life.
Ineed husband from God not from my lustful desires bkz we wont have happy life.