Dexter2020
Humble Servant of All
Now I am not afraid because I know Jesus is working and will not doubt Jesus. I ask in Jesus' name to give me a spouse who is godly and shares the same faith for marriage, and also be my helper and let Jesus write the wonderful love story. Although it was quite long, if Christ is teaching me how to love my wife and use experience and trial to call me to marriage, ask Jesus to provide one. And now I believe that all these that I ask in His name, and slowly bit by bit, sadness and happiness is what I return as well as transforming and repentance because of these. Thank you, I will not waver and disbelief or escape from the trials because you chose me out from the crowd to be your holy one and let me realize that if I don't transform, I will destroy this gift and ministry. Jesus answered my prayer through an unequally yoked relationship and closed it, through mental people because these people really need help. Jesus also sent me people who are destroying themselves due to false teaching from other religions. I got what I prayed for, and now Jesus is preparing me for this ministry. Thanks be to God, Jesus Christ, when we are faithless, He is faithful. And stop convincing myself that I am called to singlehood where I want marriage so much and even used trials to prepare me where I was foolishly pursuing my homosexual sexual desires to ask Jesus to expedite. But I realize how foolish I am. Jesus wants the best for me, but I kept doubting and avoiding, yet Jesus doesn't give up. I surrender all to you. Thinking I will enter the kingdom or quicken Jesus to expedite on my marriage in a foolish way, and though by sinning could anger Jesus to speed things up. Lord, I repent and ask for forgiveness. Amen in Jesus' name.