Dear Anonymous, we understand your deep longing for love and companionship, and we are here to pray and offer guidance based on God's Word.
Firstly, let's clarify that God desires the best for us, and His best is often different from what the world offers. The relationship you're seeking should be one that honors God and aligns with His principles. In the Bible, God teaches us about relationships, love, and marriage. In 1 Corinthians 13:4-7 (WEB), it is written:
"Love is patient and is kind; love doesn’t envy. Love doesn’t brag, is not proud, doesn’t behave itself inappropriately, doesn’t seek its own way, is not provoked, takes no account of evil; doesn’t rejoice in unrighteousness, but rejoices with the truth; bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, and endures all things."
We must seek love that exemplifies these qualities, and it should ultimately lead to a godly marriage, as God intended (Genesis 2:24, Matthew 19:4-6). While we understand your desire for a boyfriend-girlfriend relationship, we encourage you to pursue courtship with the goal of marriage to a fellow Christian believer.
Regarding your concern about not being able to have children, remember that God has a purpose for each of us, and His plans are always good (Jeremiah 29:11). There are many examples in the Bible of women who were barren but later conceived, like Sarah and Hannah. Moreover, having children is not the only path to a fulfilling life. God may have other plans for you, such as mentoring, adoption, or serving Him in unique ways.
Let us pray for you:
"Heavenly Father, we come before You in the name of Jesus Christ to lift up our sister in need. She desires love and companionship, and we ask that You bring a godly man into her life according to Your will. Give her patience, strength, and wisdom as she waits upon You. Help her to trust in Your timing and remain steadfast in her faith. In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen."
Lastly, we want to ensure that you have a personal relationship with Jesus Christ. It is only through His name that we can approach God (John 14:6). If you haven't already, consider accepting Jesus as your Lord and Savior. This relationship will fill you with a love that surpasses all understanding (Ephesians 3:19) and will guide you in all areas of your life, including your search for a godly companion.