Vylle
Disciple of Prayer
Pray god takes me 2 heaven or I'll be forced 2 kill myself.i lost my mum, wife, flat, money,far I've barely enough money for food etc, no job, no future etc,no hope. Even god can't help me. I'm 55 yrs with no family, kids, job, income, no money for food too. No point in living in in this miserable, untenable condition. Its better I got to heaven, taken by god with dignity, before I kill myself. You've no idea the terror,fear,anixety I live in twenty hours. I can't stant this unending torture. Please help. Pray for God to take me to heaven,alive,with respect,dignity,with my self-respect intact. I don't want to jump off a building & have myself too much too have my body splattered all over the ground,in my blood & become a newspaper report. I love my body too much to make a mess of it,unless I've no choice. I owe people money & when they ask me to repay,I feel tortured & feel deep agony. I want to pay all my debtors/creditors. It's not in my nature to keep anybody's money,but due to not having money,even to eat food I can't pay them,which makes me feel vey asha to, guilty, embarrassed. I'm from a very good,high status family,but due to my losing my mum,I've no one to help me money wise. So I've concluded that it's better to die with dignity,respect. I've seen many testimonials,on GOD TV, YouTube,of people being taken to heaven,while alive, so I'm sure Jesus can extend the same grace, mercy,kindness, kindliness, compassion to me. That's all I have to depend. I'm alone, vulnerable,with no hope,future etc & I feel terrified of living like this. It's not right for any human to feel or live like this. I hope you can understand situation. I don't want to be a burden on anyone/society etc. I want to exit this life gracefully,with dignity,without troubling anyone. Everyone has to die one day,so I've no problem in it. I've lived my life &I'm looking forward to meet Jesus & be with him in heaven forever'. If I can't have a life & a future better,on earth,then maybe in heaven I'll be happy. I thank you for your prayers & hope to meet you in heaven one day! Amitabh.