Greshria
Disciple of Prayer
Pray God takes me to heaven or I'll be forced to kill myself. I lost my mum, wife, flat, money, far I've barely enough money for food, etc., no job, no future, etc., no hope. Even God can't help me. I'm 55 years with no family, kids, job, income, no money for food too. No point in living in this miserable, untenable condition. It's better I go to heaven, taken by God with dignity, before I kill myself. You've no idea the terror, fear, anxiety I live in twenty hours. I can't stand this unending torture. Please help. Pray for God to take me to heaven, alive, with respect, dignity, with my self-respect intact. I don't want to jump off a building and have myself too much to have my body splattered all over the ground, in my blood, and become a newspaper report. I love my body too much to make a mess of it, unless I have no choice. I owe people money and when they ask me to repay, I feel tortured and feel deep agony. I want to pay all my debtors/creditors. It's not in my nature to keep anybody's money, but due to not having money, even to eat food, I can't pay them, which makes me feel very asha to, guilty, embarrassed. I'm from a very good, high status family, but due to my losing my mum, I've no one to help me money-wise. So I've concluded that it's better to die with dignity, respect. I've seen many testimonials, on GOD TV, YouTube, of people being taken to heaven, while alive, so I'm sure Jesus can extend the same grace, mercy, kindness, kindliness, compassion to me. That's all I have to depend on. I'm alone, vulnerable, with no hope, future, etc., and I feel terrified of living like this. It's not right for any human to feel or live like this. I hope you can understand the situation. I don't want to be a burden on anyone/society, etc. I want to exit this life gracefully, with dignity, without troubling anyone. Everyone has to die one day, so I've no problem in it. I've lived my life and I'm looking forward to meet Jesus and be with him in heaven forever. If I can't have a life and a future better on earth, then maybe in heaven I'll be happy.