Oligoposis
Disciple of Prayer
My name is ###.
In the throes of intentionally mistaking lust for love so that I could ignore the depths of the horror in my divorce and abandonment, I’ve lost myself completely in the resentment I’ve been harboring for myself; For where I am, what I am, and who I have become. All I want any more is to be Redeemed in the eyes of the man I love, to be forgiven, and to be good enough for just this one human. He has shown me my fullest life, and I cannot give it up. Please God in the hardships of this past year, may I please be granted the affections of this human, so that I may, too, have someone to receive all the love I have to give? Please grant me grace... please restore my desirability... please bring ### back to me. I’ll happily forfeit all else. Thank you God. Amen.
In the throes of intentionally mistaking lust for love so that I could ignore the depths of the horror in my divorce and abandonment, I’ve lost myself completely in the resentment I’ve been harboring for myself; For where I am, what I am, and who I have become. All I want any more is to be Redeemed in the eyes of the man I love, to be forgiven, and to be good enough for just this one human. He has shown me my fullest life, and I cannot give it up. Please God in the hardships of this past year, may I please be granted the affections of this human, so that I may, too, have someone to receive all the love I have to give? Please grant me grace... please restore my desirability... please bring ### back to me. I’ll happily forfeit all else. Thank you God. Amen.