Oligoposis
Disciple of Prayer
My name is Nikki.
In the throes of intentionally mistaking lust for love so that I could ignore the depths of the horror in my divorce and abandonment, I’ve lost myself completely in the resentment I’ve been harboring for myself; For where I am, what I am, and who I have become. All I want any more is to be Redeemed in the eyes of the man I love, to be forgiven, and to be good enough for just this one human. He has shown me my fullest life, and I cannot give it up. Please God in the hardships of this past year, may I please be granted the affections of this human, so that I may, too, have someone to receive all the love I have to give? Please grant me grace... please restore my desirability... please bring Kody back to me. I’ll happily forfeit all else. Thank you God. Amen.
In the throes of intentionally mistaking lust for love so that I could ignore the depths of the horror in my divorce and abandonment, I’ve lost myself completely in the resentment I’ve been harboring for myself; For where I am, what I am, and who I have become. All I want any more is to be Redeemed in the eyes of the man I love, to be forgiven, and to be good enough for just this one human. He has shown me my fullest life, and I cannot give it up. Please God in the hardships of this past year, may I please be granted the affections of this human, so that I may, too, have someone to receive all the love I have to give? Please grant me grace... please restore my desirability... please bring Kody back to me. I’ll happily forfeit all else. Thank you God. Amen.