Anonymous
Beloved of All
I rarely see my parents; maybe that's why we get on... when I'm away, they criticize me all the time and speak down on me, are unsupportive, and would rather listen to anyone else's problem but mine. They're selfish, rude, and they always used to threaten to throw me out or make me feel unwelcome in our living space to the point I threatened I'd run away. This was so many years ago. I wisened up, learned to be quiet, things got better. But I swear to God, I always thought my mom was a narcissist, that or broken by life and my dad. I swore when I turn 19 it'll be no contact. Lately, I had some mental health issues that are stress-dependent, and she is not helping with all her saying vile things to me that should never be uttered to a child.
Context: I came back for Christmas. We didn't even do anything together. She rather avoid me and tell me I talk too much and am annoying. I wish our relationship was repaired and she acted like a real mom, not an evil Disney stepmom to me. My sister is also acting out of sorts... when she doesn't get her way, tantrum, cussing out my mom, etc., it's as if my family is possessed with mental and physical health issues, and everyone is proud and won't admit their wrongs.
Never heard ever the word sorry come out my mother's mouth, to me or anyone, despite her saying she doesn't find it hard to apologize, lies. Anyways, today we had such a big argument that I wanted to (off) myself or my health issues to finish me off; they didn't even take me seriously but only added to my stress and shouting and overwhelming me, and also I was betrayed by my sister on the same day. Now about my sister, she is mouthy, disrespectful to me and mom, and out of order for real. Mega nasty child she became. Like rude and fat, and she used to be cute, innocent, and healthy weight. Now she is gluttonous and only spends time with us when she can steal something from the fridge. I feel robbed of my family and of this Christmas holiday. My mother said she doesn't want to see me again and why don't I go back, leave my house, when am I gonna leave already, etc., etc. I cried three times today; feel like crying even more, but it will make my mental health worse, and she doesn't deserve my tears. Please genuinely pray she apologizes to me and realizes her wrong and makes it up to me like begging me, nothing else will make me happy. This woman has never made me feel loved or safe or ever made her wrongs right. I'd be so happy if she just said how remorseful she was for hurting me and that she didn't mean it. Maybe if she says it, the suicidal feelings from my past will go away again. Please let us have family time together before I leave and let her be punished by missing me heavily while I'm gone and ask me to come home for summer and not make some argument when I next see her. Let my sister be a nice girl and get her life together again, and we have family harmony as a unit and spend time together. I beg you, pray for me, don't just say I prayed and scroll. Please, if you're a real person, drop me a comment of solidarity and understanding and encourage me to be strong, to have faith, because it's low right now. I feel defeated.
Please. I know God will return your miracle for praying for me with all your heart.
Thank you.
Context: I came back for Christmas. We didn't even do anything together. She rather avoid me and tell me I talk too much and am annoying. I wish our relationship was repaired and she acted like a real mom, not an evil Disney stepmom to me. My sister is also acting out of sorts... when she doesn't get her way, tantrum, cussing out my mom, etc., it's as if my family is possessed with mental and physical health issues, and everyone is proud and won't admit their wrongs.
Never heard ever the word sorry come out my mother's mouth, to me or anyone, despite her saying she doesn't find it hard to apologize, lies. Anyways, today we had such a big argument that I wanted to (off) myself or my health issues to finish me off; they didn't even take me seriously but only added to my stress and shouting and overwhelming me, and also I was betrayed by my sister on the same day. Now about my sister, she is mouthy, disrespectful to me and mom, and out of order for real. Mega nasty child she became. Like rude and fat, and she used to be cute, innocent, and healthy weight. Now she is gluttonous and only spends time with us when she can steal something from the fridge. I feel robbed of my family and of this Christmas holiday. My mother said she doesn't want to see me again and why don't I go back, leave my house, when am I gonna leave already, etc., etc. I cried three times today; feel like crying even more, but it will make my mental health worse, and she doesn't deserve my tears. Please genuinely pray she apologizes to me and realizes her wrong and makes it up to me like begging me, nothing else will make me happy. This woman has never made me feel loved or safe or ever made her wrongs right. I'd be so happy if she just said how remorseful she was for hurting me and that she didn't mean it. Maybe if she says it, the suicidal feelings from my past will go away again. Please let us have family time together before I leave and let her be punished by missing me heavily while I'm gone and ask me to come home for summer and not make some argument when I next see her. Let my sister be a nice girl and get her life together again, and we have family harmony as a unit and spend time together. I beg you, pray for me, don't just say I prayed and scroll. Please, if you're a real person, drop me a comment of solidarity and understanding and encourage me to be strong, to have faith, because it's low right now. I feel defeated.
Please. I know God will return your miracle for praying for me with all your heart.
Thank you.