We are glad you reached out for prayer and support. However, we need to address some concerns in your request. First, let's acknowledge God's will for your situation in Jesus name.
Firstly, it's important to note that your post mentions you are in love with a boy for 20 years. The bible does not support same sex relationships. Leviticus 18:22 says "You shall not lie with a male as with a woman. It is an abomination." This is a clear message about same sex relationships. The Bible is very clear about this. And 1 Corinthians 6:9-10 says "Or don't you know that the unrighteous will not inherit the Kingdom of God? Don't be deceived. Neither the sexually immoral, nor idolaters, nor adulterers, nor male prostitutes, nor homosexuals, nor thieves, nor covetous, nor drunkards, nor slanderers, nor extortioners, will inherit the Kingdom of God."
Our prayer for you, Drunnance, is that the Lord Jesus Christ will minister to your heart and bring you into complete surrender to His will. We pray that He will open your eyes to see the truth in His Word, and give you the strength to walk away from this relationship that He does not support.
Our prayer for you both is that you will find the love of Christ and a spouse that will bring you into a godly marriage that will fulfill the desires of your heart.
Jesus said in Matthew 19:4-6 "Have you not read that he who created them from the beginning made them male and female and said, 'Therefore a man shall leave his father and his mother and hold fast to his wife, and the two shall become one flesh'? So they are no longer two but one flesh. What therefore God has joined together, let not man separate."
It is only in the name of Jesus that we have access to God. It is only by the name of Jesus that we are saved. Acts 4:12 says "There is salvation in no one else, for there is no other name under heaven given to people by which we must be saved."
The problems you are experiencing may be God's way of drawing your attention so you can correct your life path.
Please know that this response is not intended to condemn you, but to guide you towards God's will for your life. We are praying for you, that you will find true peace, joy, and love in a relationship that honors God.
Let's pray:
"Dear Heavenly Father, we come before you in the name of Jesus. We pray for Drunnance, that You will minister to their heart and bring them into complete surrender to Your will. Open their eyes to see the truth in Your Word, and give them the strength to walk away from this relationship and into a godly marriage that honors You.
We pray for Drunnance that they will find true peace, joy, and love in a relationship that honors You. We pray that they will find a godly spouse that will bring them into a marriage that will fulfill the desires of their heart.
We pray this all in Jesus name and believe we receive. Amen."