LizyLove
Disciple of Prayer
Please pray for my marriage and for the future decisions that lay ahead. I’m 23 with 2 children under the age of 4. I’ve known my husband for less than 5 years married for 4 years. Our marriage is fast falling apart. My husband is emotionally, mentally, financially abusive to me. He never was before we married or had children. I married him when I was young (19) he was (21) I gave birth at (20) after we married and began expanding our family things changed and he became abusive. It started slow and I chalked it up to stress of a young husband and father not knowing what to do or how to do it. We’ve always lived with my disabled mother and still currently do. He used to be the kindest most affectionate an understanding person I’ve ever met in my entire life. Now he’s angry, abusive, uncaring, threating, insulting and demeaning. I’ve tried getting him to acknowledge his behavior and he does see where he’s wrong but isn’t making a conscious effort to change. I’ve began to see a counselor for myself to help me out with my emotional problems so I can become a better wife and mother. I’ve even found a marriage counselor that works weekends an accepts our insurance an before he said he’d go but now is explosive when the subject is even slightly brought up. He has said that he doesn’t want to go to work and work all day and then come home and do more work with me and the kids he just wants to relax an be able to do whatever he wants an be left alone. Our children are currently sick with a cold and at dinner out 3 yr old wouldn’t stop crying and didn’t want to eat his supper. When he wouldn’t listen and calm down my husband became enraged and yelled at him an kept snapping his fingers at him telling him to stop then stormed out and hasn’t returned for the night. He mentioned as he was going out that he wasn’t eating supper and that he didn’t sign up for bratty children that don’t listen or respect him and that he doesn’t love out children anymore and didn’t want to do this anymore. I’ve tried talking reason into him and told him just to take a step back and calm down and he’s been gone for about 4 hours. It’s currently 1:30am as I’m typing this and he’s still not here and he has work at 4:30am. I’m just so fed up that I can’t see it working without a miracle. I came from a broken home so I know that is something I want to keep from my children. I’m still trying to heal from that kind of childhood. I don’t want my children having to heal from their childhood. Just please keep us in your prayers because even if I did leave him I’d have no income as I’m a stay at home mother and I don’t even have my license or a car because he did want me to have one. I’m just so afraid for my future and my children’s and even my husbands future.
With a humble heart, LizyLove
With a humble heart, LizyLove