richardmokaya
Servant of All
Kindly for my daughter who left sent me this message....... "
[6/1, 9:31 PM] Wyn: Hi dad, I hope you are fine, and kicking well with life. I know that I have been a pain in the ass for many years, but as a father and a good father, you got to tolerate me, even when I did the worst. I know I have lied so many times and put you through much stress and pressure, but I hope this will end as soon as possible. I am really sorry for the pain I have caused your heart. I am sorry for making you feel like a failure as a father. But I thank God you have a son who makes you proud all the days.. I know I can not be able to reach the standards of otaro, because I am giving up with my life. I think I am only breathing because God wants me to. And as I told mom, always thank God for He has kept me upto date. The number of times I have tried to commit suicide are just uncountable, because no one understands who I am. And that is why you will just stay negative about me. I honestly love this family, because your tolerance gives me the patience to see another day, year come, year go. All I want to tell you is thank you so much, cause you really have shown a lot of love towards me, and I believe that someday I will become the person who you want me to be. I hope that God keeps me alive in His hands, so that I get to see another chance to see your smiles all through. I am now an adult, but I don't know what life is anymore. I am just useless, and I don't deserve to be treated in a good way. Otaro deserves better than I do. I am a nobody, I am just but dead inside, and honestly at this point of life I just see myself counting my days on earth. I honestly don't know for how long I am going to live like this, because you really don't want me to open up to you. I am not telling you this so that you get to know me within a day. But my advice would be take your time to study me and know me.. And this does not mean you spy on me. No, don't waste your time looking for what I do in my life, because I don't live a life, I just breathe to see a new day. Any way, as you said before, you can get other children if you want to, but you will never get a person like me in your life. I pray that God keeps you healthy and that he might restore your courage to face me, not as a failure in life, but as a person who has something to do with her life,. But what am I? I am a looser, a great failure, because I failed all the days of my life. And I am alive today because God wants me to. And there is a purpose as to why God planted me in this homestead. I very sorry if I make you regret why God gave you to me, and I am very sorry to make you feel like a father who doesn't deserve such a trouble like me...
[6/1, 9:32 PM] Wyn: But just know that I am greatful that you have me as your daughter. And that you have taken the last 19 years to do all the best, to have me live a nice life, which I don't think I deserve at all..
I love you irrevocably and May God give you the strength in all that you do.
[6/1, 9:33 PM] Wyn: I don't want to be a bother anymore, and I don't want you to feel wasted about me".....
So that she may find hope and peace in her life in Jesus Name I pray and believe, Amen.
[6/1, 9:31 PM] Wyn: Hi dad, I hope you are fine, and kicking well with life. I know that I have been a pain in the ass for many years, but as a father and a good father, you got to tolerate me, even when I did the worst. I know I have lied so many times and put you through much stress and pressure, but I hope this will end as soon as possible. I am really sorry for the pain I have caused your heart. I am sorry for making you feel like a failure as a father. But I thank God you have a son who makes you proud all the days.. I know I can not be able to reach the standards of otaro, because I am giving up with my life. I think I am only breathing because God wants me to. And as I told mom, always thank God for He has kept me upto date. The number of times I have tried to commit suicide are just uncountable, because no one understands who I am. And that is why you will just stay negative about me. I honestly love this family, because your tolerance gives me the patience to see another day, year come, year go. All I want to tell you is thank you so much, cause you really have shown a lot of love towards me, and I believe that someday I will become the person who you want me to be. I hope that God keeps me alive in His hands, so that I get to see another chance to see your smiles all through. I am now an adult, but I don't know what life is anymore. I am just useless, and I don't deserve to be treated in a good way. Otaro deserves better than I do. I am a nobody, I am just but dead inside, and honestly at this point of life I just see myself counting my days on earth. I honestly don't know for how long I am going to live like this, because you really don't want me to open up to you. I am not telling you this so that you get to know me within a day. But my advice would be take your time to study me and know me.. And this does not mean you spy on me. No, don't waste your time looking for what I do in my life, because I don't live a life, I just breathe to see a new day. Any way, as you said before, you can get other children if you want to, but you will never get a person like me in your life. I pray that God keeps you healthy and that he might restore your courage to face me, not as a failure in life, but as a person who has something to do with her life,. But what am I? I am a looser, a great failure, because I failed all the days of my life. And I am alive today because God wants me to. And there is a purpose as to why God planted me in this homestead. I very sorry if I make you regret why God gave you to me, and I am very sorry to make you feel like a father who doesn't deserve such a trouble like me...
[6/1, 9:32 PM] Wyn: But just know that I am greatful that you have me as your daughter. And that you have taken the last 19 years to do all the best, to have me live a nice life, which I don't think I deserve at all..
I love you irrevocably and May God give you the strength in all that you do.
[6/1, 9:33 PM] Wyn: I don't want to be a bother anymore, and I don't want you to feel wasted about me".....
So that she may find hope and peace in her life in Jesus Name I pray and believe, Amen.