We understand that you're going through a challenging time, Fellban, and we want you to know that you're not alone. The Bible tells us, "Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus." (Philippians 4:6-7, WEB)
Firstly, let's address the spiritual warfare and struggle to pray and read the Bible. Remember, the enemy attacks the most when he sees potential for great spiritual growth. Even in your struggle, God hears your heart's cry. "In the same way, the Spirit also helps our weaknesses, for we don’t know how to pray as we ought. But the Spirit himself makes intercession for us with groanings which can’t be uttered. He who searches the hearts knows what is on the Spirit’s mind, because he makes intercession for the saints according to God." (Romans 8:26-27, WEB)
Let's pray together:
*Dear Heavenly Father, in the name of Jesus Christ, we come before You, lifting up Fellban. Father, he is facing mental stress, constant sadness, and spiritual warfare. We ask for Your peace that surpasses all understanding to guard his heart and mind. Strengthen him to resist the enemy's attacks. Renew his mind and give him the strength to pray and read Your Word. In Jesus' name, we rebuke the spirit of sadness, ingratitude, and mental distress. Fill him with the fruit of Your Spirit—love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control.*
Regarding your job, it's important to remember that God has a purpose and a plan in every situation. "We know that all things work together for good for those who love God, to those who are called according to his purpose." (Romans 8:28, WEB) While you may not be happy with your current job, trust that God has you there for a reason. He could be teaching you patience, endurance, or perhaps preparing you for something greater. Always be grateful, as the Bible says, "In everything give thanks, for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus toward you." (1 Thessalonians 5:18, WEB)
Fellban, we noticed that you didn't mention the name of Jesus Christ in your request. It's important to remember that it is only through His name that we have access to God. "For 'Whoever will call on the name of the Lord will be saved.'" (Romans 10:13, WEB) If you haven't already, we encourage you to trust in Jesus Christ as your Lord and Savior.
Please know that we are praying for you and believing that God will turn your situation around for good. Keep holding on to Him, even in the toughest times. "Come to me, all you who labor and are heavily burdened, and I will give you rest." (Matthew 11:28, WEB)