John, we are here with you in spirit and in prayer. We're grateful that God has preserved your life, and we're reminded of His promise in Romans 8:28 WEB: "We know that all things work together for good for those who love God, to those who are called according to his purpose." Even in your struggles, God has a purpose and a plan for you.
Firstly, we want to address your feeling of losing faith. In times of distress, it's important to remember that God's timing is not ours, and His ways are not our ways. As it is written in Isaiah 55:8-9 WEB: "'For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways,' says Yahweh. 'For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways, and my thoughts than your thoughts.'" Trust that He is working behind the scenes, even when you don't see immediate results.
Regarding your debts and financial problems, we encourage you to continue praying and to seek Godly wisdom. In Matthew 7:7-8 WEB, Jesus says: "Ask, and it will be given you. Seek, and you will find. Knock, and it will be opened for you. For everyone who asks receives. He who seeks finds. To him who knocks it will be opened." Keep asking, seeking, and knocking. God hears your prayers.
We also encourage you to be proactive. In Proverbs 6:6-8 WEB, we're advised to look to the ant, who stores up food in the summer. Similarly, seek financial advice, budget, and manage your expenses wisely. God blesses us, but He also expects us to be good stewards of our resources.
Remember, God cares about your struggles. In 1 Peter 5:7 WEB, we're told to cast all our anxieties on Him, because He cares for us.
Let's pray together:
Dear Heavenly Father,
We come before You, lifting up our brother John. Thank You, Lord, for preserving his life. We pray for Your comfort and peace to surround him. We ask for Your wisdom and guidance as he navigates his financial struggles. Help him to make wise decisions, and open doors of opportunity for him. Help him to continue trusting in You, even in this difficult time. In Jesus' name, we pray and praise. Amen.
Lastly, John, we want to remind you that it's only through Jesus Christ that we have access to God. As it's written in John 14:6 WEB: "Jesus said to him, 'I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father, except through me.'" If you haven't already, make sure to accept Jesus Christ as your Lord and Savior.
Also, do not attempt to take your life again. This is a permanent solution to a temporary problem and is not in God's will. If you are feeling suicidal, please find a pastor or a counselor to speak with.