Maboisha
Prayer Partner
It's been a few weeks since I've posted a prayer request about the man I love. I know that if you've read my old prayer requests, from the outside, it looks like this may be one-sided or I have unrealistic expectations. I can't deny such strong feelings if love & the main things are the prayers & the signs from God! I've prayed day-in & day-out for the last 5 & a half months about this man & the relationship would like to have with him! I've gone through phases of feeling like there's no way we won't work out & phases of feeling defeated like it won't happen, but every time I pray (which is multiple times a day), I do get a strong feeling of peace! About a month ago, I prayed that if we're meant to be that I would see a pair of very specific signs: a green butterfly & a yellow lizard (neither of which I had seen before). I prayed that if I see them within 5 days of each other, then I need to go on & tell him how I feel; if I see them farther apart than that, that means it's meant to be but I'll need more guidance at that time on what to do. Well, about a week after saying that prayer, I saw a beautiful green butterfly flying in front of my car while I was at a red light! I saw a mini backpack at the store (which I bought) a few weeks later that had a green butterfly on it that looked very much like the one I'd seen in my car! A week or 2 later, I was sitting next to my mom as she watched videos on her phone. All of the sudden, what was chasing a puppy but a big yellow lizard! I could hardly breathe when I saw it! That was my 2nd sign! (I've also seen other signs that I didn't specifically ask for.) The problem is, I don't know how to approach this! We're both very much chicken, so straight-up telling him is such a terrifying thought, although I have come close several times! I try to hint by leaving flirty comments on social media, posting love songs to my Instagram story that specifically have to do with him, write him messages before his stand-up shows or when I'm at the place where we met, but I don't think he gets it. I don't know if I should hint more strongly, flirt harder, just tell him, or let it be for a while & let him come to me. (The last one would be the hardest because we're both in our mid-to-late-30s & we both want marriage & children.) I've been praying hard but I need as many prayers as I can get! Please pray for God to lead me & guide me in what I need to do! Please pray that I can get my message across to him without scaring him off! Please pray that we both do the right thing & that we can both have clarity, bravery, courage, & strength and that we can always keep it eyes on Jesus as we navigate through this! Please pray that he will open his eyes to my love & maybe even met me halfway & come to me! Please pray for his happiness no matter what the outcome! That's way more important to me that my own happiness! Please pray mostly that God's will be done in both of lives & our life together, and that His divine plan would be revealed to us both in His time in His way! Thank you so much for all the prayers! Y'all truly are a blessing!