Kethtyth
Prayer Partner
So, fist off I know that many people say that I project( I don't know when I am or what that really means) and over sharing and I have beaten my self for that. But than I have come to realize that is just how my brain works and it helps me to share these things with others so I can be a witness and be a testamony for Jesus. I have an extreme desire to serve God and his children and it hurts me immensely when I hurt any of them so please try not to take this the wrong way.
I am trying so hard to have patients and love for all but it is very hard since the people I live with (my parents) are incredibly manipulative, and some times wonder if my father is a bit of a narcissist( he also mentally abuses my mom). So on top of my brain not even working as well as a very young child's brain in many ways... They manipulate me by telling me things like if I don't go to a mens retreat than I don't love my kids while my mom is crying and acting like going to the mens retreat is going to fix all of my brain problems. And then many days my dad gets very angry but if I get even a little bit angry he blows up and starts saying things like we have done so much for you, you have no right to get angry... They do this type of thing all of the time and it hurts so bad, I just feel like screaming " I can't think through things even half as well as you think I can" I want to help people but since I can't think many people end up using and abusing me.
Please pray for my parents I still love them and somtimes I wish that my brain worked better so I could figure out how to even figure out a quarter of what they think I can but am trying to be content, so please pray for me also as I have no choice but to suffer through this day after day
I am trying so hard to have patients and love for all but it is very hard since the people I live with (my parents) are incredibly manipulative, and some times wonder if my father is a bit of a narcissist( he also mentally abuses my mom). So on top of my brain not even working as well as a very young child's brain in many ways... They manipulate me by telling me things like if I don't go to a mens retreat than I don't love my kids while my mom is crying and acting like going to the mens retreat is going to fix all of my brain problems. And then many days my dad gets very angry but if I get even a little bit angry he blows up and starts saying things like we have done so much for you, you have no right to get angry... They do this type of thing all of the time and it hurts so bad, I just feel like screaming " I can't think through things even half as well as you think I can" I want to help people but since I can't think many people end up using and abusing me.
Please pray for my parents I still love them and somtimes I wish that my brain worked better so I could figure out how to even figure out a quarter of what they think I can but am trying to be content, so please pray for me also as I have no choice but to suffer through this day after day